iffa haziqah

2007-11-05T12:16:00.000+08:00

I'VE MOVED!

Last Day Of Madrasah

2007-11-03T21:39:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's madrasah was CRAZY and i like it that way. Especially since it's the last day.

15 years in madrasah and i'm graduating, how exciting right?
24 November.
=)

Took pictures with Fiqah and Hana, my bestfriends in and out of madrasah.
They've changed me for the better.
I LUB THEM MANY MANY LA! AKU AKAN RINDU KORANG TAU TAK?!

We shall meet again soon! After O'Levels ok. Sayang korang. =)

Today, after meeting Mdm Saudah for SS went to Safra.
The purpose was to watch my sister garduate but then i decided to volunteer myself to help out with the admin stuffs.
Not course Fiqah and Hana was there cause i felt like helping out.
See, i've changed!
I used to not like doing all that but it's different now and i'm looking out for more.!
It was fun helping out, though it gets on your nerves at times.

Oh guess what Nusya friend's said about me.
She said i looked like ANG-MOH!!!
I'm fair and i like!!!!

Hehehehe!
Plus, i love what i wore today and
wearing a tudung makes me feel so secured and safe.=]

I'll end this post with this,

=)

Shifting

2007-11-02T17:17:00.000+08:00

3 papers left.
I'm suppose to get ready for religious class but here i am blogging away.

Anyway, today went by very fast!

Was really tired and bored so i decided to look through my photo album, and i realise something, i miss my Yunnan peeps. I miss my group and YUNNAN! The crazy Islam meals. Hehehehe...
And, i miss the fiknatics and the sistaz. Let see, how long have i not been in the forum? It's very long, and it's been so long since i saw Mr Soulman sang LIVE. Wonder whats been happening at the forum, i miss last year!!!

But, it's ending soon. This nightmare of being a 5N/4E student is ending!
Seriously i can't wait. A lot of things have been lined up for me and the Fab, BFs & Sistaz.
November8 faster come la!

Today is the last day of madrasah and can't believe i'm graduating already after nearly like 15 years studying there! Wahahahaha! Fiqah, Hana!!! Aku rindu korang!!! Jap lagik kite jumpe yer!

Damn, this is random! -_-

5 more papers baby!

2007-10-31T07:57:00.000+08:00

Attention:
NO MORE ART!!!!!!
yay!!!!
Wahahahahahaha!!!

I can't help it but to blog.
After 3 years of art and two years of coursework and
4 years of Lodeh's face, i'm finally free from art. Finally....

You won't know how it's like to be an art student until you become one
and i'm never gonna touch any art stuffs anymore, NO MORE!!
Even though, my dad is an artist but, who bloody hell cares?!
I don't have any art genes in me except for Drama, that's exceptional.

=)
I'm happy and and it's 5 more papers to freedom baby!

When this week ends, i'm left with 3 more.
I'm smelling it already, just wait till it's over.
I need my eyes to rest from all those books, words and formulas!

All the best for the rest of the papers
O'Levels Students.

O'Levels Tomorrow!

2007-10-23T18:56:00.000+08:00

The day has arrived, it's finally here.
Ok, well it started last week but
the written papers offically starts tomorrow for me that is.

The unless days of night study sessions.
The appointment with teachers.
The late night studying at home.

Just to face this examination.
What can i say?

It's been a year of sacrifices, craziness,
And definitely the breaking down moments.
How can i forget?

So tomorrow will be Chemistry written paper.
Mal' we shall chiong for the paper alright?! hehehe.

I'll put my heart, body, mind & soul for this,
what the hell, it's for all the papers even for POA.

So, i wish all my friends;
the Titans, my Fabs, my BFs & my Sistaz,
(Mal', AziQa & Anati)

ALL THE VERY BEST!!!
I know all of us can make it!

Deep down inside i'm really reallly scared & worried!

Updates.

2007-10-20T14:31:00.000+08:00

17 October 2007

It was Firli's 17th Birthday!
So, as usual we had our bash but his was superbly dirty & smelly.

Firstly, we had to blindfold him so that we could

henna both his hand even though it was practical the next day.

This was his reaction.

He was lucky cause the henna wasn't dark and his skin colour is dark, so it wasn't obvious.

Then, we head down to the playground.
We tied him to a tree cause he was running around non-stop and we were getting tired.
I got the honor to splash the 'stuff' first.
So, he looked like this, after so much splashing...

Thanks to US,He had a GREAT BIRTHDAY!

Anyway, he was a happy kid that day and we were glad that he enjoyed it.

After much chasing us and snapping photos we went home.

18 October 2007

I had Science practical which was not easy and very tricky!
I'm just praying for the best, now focusing on the theory papers!

19 October 2007

It was Naufal's 7th birthday.

So Happy Belated Birthday Baby Brother! I'll always love you! =)

20 October 2007 which is today,
is Shalini aka my Poochie's 17th Birthday.

Happy birthday darl.
All the best for the BIG O and eveything else!

Now, i'm off to do my art or not i'll get scream (over reacted!) by Cikgu LODEH tu lagik!

Hari Raya '07

2007-10-14T00:31:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's Hari Raya was simple but, happening.

Invited neighbours and my friends over for makan.
And, we had a great lot of fun.
Playing Nintendo DS, Cooking Mama.
Chatting with my younger brother which seems to connect with them really well.

Glad that they had a great time at my house, thanks for the chocolates luvs. =)

Then, had 'that' session, took family photo and went to auntie's house.

Meet my 2 cute&adorable nephews!

Me & my lovable cousin!

It was definately crazy there.
It's been so long since i saw everybody!
Interacted, laughed, cried & salam for $$$.

I'm exhausted and not sleepy.
They are coming over tomorrow, there goes my plan to study.
Hmph!

Happy Hari Raya-ing!

Graduation day 2007

2007-10-12T09:05:00.000+08:00

YTSS GRADUATION DAY '07

I've finally graduated! =)

11 October marks the day that i leave the Yishun Town family.
My teachers, my fellow friends and that classroom.

It's been a challenging, interesting and difficult 3years for us, Titans but nevertheless, we became friends & buddies within this short period of time.

We laugh.
We cry.
We share our problems & secrets.
We play and have fun together.
&
We shall excel in our O'Levels together.

To Ms Kong & Mr Kumar,
thank you so much for being there for me.
Guiding me & encourging through my sec5 year.
Indeed, nobody can replace you!

To Mdm Saudah, my mother in school.
You are the light that will always keep shining for me.
You never fail to make Humans lesson interesting & funny.
Thank you, for always being there for me. =)

Fab5!!
You made sec5 a memorable year for me.
4 of you never fail to encourage me on whenever i'm at the edge of giving up.
We had issues, we had conflicts & we had arguements.
But, in the end, it all ends well.
Poochie, Prabs, Ayu & Shmi.
I LOVE you guys, we shall brave through O'Levels & enjoy our holidays together!!!!
Fab5 will stay on!

BFs!!
Never have i imagine that we would go this far together.
Crazy, idiotic, irritating, disgusting & funny.
I'm so different from you guys, but you guys never fail to make me feel like i'm one of yours.
Study hard ok! Don't give up. You guys can make it through O'Levels.
Any help neeeded, i'll be available!
BFs for life! =)
SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE IS THE BEST!YTSS family will be missed!
Anyway, tomorrow is Hari Raya!!!I'm not excited neither am i upset. Just that, it's too fast. Selamat Hari Raya to everyone esp my sistaz!
Iffa harap kalau Iffa ada buat silap terhadap sistaz, kesilapan itu dimaafkan. Semoga, Hari Raya ini membawa berkat kepada semua. Selamat Hari Raya Adilfitri Maaf Zahir Dan Batin.

Weird..

2007-10-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

It's weird when such good friends can be complete strangers in just a split second.

I remembered what Daniel Ong said today,
" True friends will put up with your nonsense, no matter how nonsense can it be. "

It made me think of them, everyone of my friends.
I pity them for putting up with my nonsense, i understand, i can be really childish & crappy.

I don't know how exactly is she coping but, i hope she's doing fine.
Cause only she knows what is she feeling deep down within.

Should i talk to her first?
Or wait for her?
Maybe i should start the conversation first, but i'm scared.
I can't even have the guts to face her, tell me how to talk to her?

And, the way Shmi & Ayu put it, it seem so easy.
I wish it was.

God Bless.

2 more days to Graduation Day.
9 more days to Practical.
15 more days to Written Papers.

2007-10-05T00:38:00.000+08:00

I wrote a very long post for Shalini but, decided not to show it.

Shalini!!!
This Saturday, date????
I want!!!!!!
Where?
What time?

If we are having one, i'll tell you everything. =)

Ok off to maths now.

5 more days to Graduation Day.
13 more days to Pratical.
19 more days to Written Papers.

Completely Drained.

2007-10-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

Night study is definately tiring.

But, endure.
1 more week, then off we go.

Had great fun today with my BFs.
Charace, Firli, Fazlin & Silva.
They never fails to brighten up my day, especially today =)

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

It's definately, obviously, 100% sure, she never did understood me.

Well, nobody did.
It's difficult to understand me cause i keep things to myself too much.
And, yeah i think it's better that way.
Trust me, even Charace don't know whats hiding in this idiotic brain/face of mine.

I don't know, i think we are parting.
Sometimes i asked myself, have i understood her enough?
And have i been a good friend to my BFs and Fabs?
I get answers from my head like; NO, NEVER...

Weird, but i guess that's it.
Sometimes i wish, i could be perfect for everyone but i know, no one is.
But, i hope i am, for my Family, BFs, Sistaz and maybe, just maybe the Fabs.

I'm sorry, if you're hurt, but i'm just typing what i feel.
Really, this is what i feel about our friendship.
Just, don't cry. Not worth it, pooch.

Oh, did i tell ya that this is girl is being MISSED, by me!

AMALINA, got miss me or not?!

Wahahahaha.
Ok, i'm off.
Heading for English.

CIAO.

9 more days to Grdauation Day.
17 more days to Practical.
23 more days to Written O'Levels.

TAUFIK-ED.

2007-09-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

It's amazing when a person can make this =( into this =)
Who you asked?

This guy,

My MR SOULMAN!!!

Yes, him.
Cause, like other o'levels students who is a fiknatic, i miss him.

And, i must say, really i must say...

I GOT TAUFIK-ED!

Like, it was the first time i saw him performing on TV.
It's like the first time i heard him sing.
It's like the first time he sang bloody hell romantic with someone.

I was melting, right there in front of my TV.
Clapping my hands, cheering for him, shouting his name
and screaming how hot he is.

COMPLETE MADDNESS.

I know.

He's my TROY BOLTON.
So, Shalini, Praveena and Ngiap Wei, you can have TROY BOLTON, cause i already have mine.
=)

Ok, off to.... hmmm, english now.

10 more days to Graduation.
18 more days to Practical.
24 more days to Written O'Levels.

Friendship.

2007-09-26T09:12:00.000+08:00

My heart is aching, my brain is in pain.

Thinking of it, is making me feel so sad.

I just came seem to type my rant.

It's more than words...

I just wanna know, what you really treat me as?
Twin soul or just friends or i don know, you decide.
cause i'm tired of guessing.

2007-09-25T15:53:00.000+08:00

Omg !!
I'm so happy .
I passed my prelims with flying colours .
All my hardwork has been paid off .
I passed it well . Didn't fail any subjects .
Just hope I will perform the same during O 's

When Mal' type-d this in her blog, i was so bloody hell happy for her but than, when i read this..

p/s : the first paragraph is a BIG LIE !! Its the real opposite of the reality . Get the drift ?

i really really wanted to scream at her.

Anyways, Mal' i'm sure you can make.
Aziqa, Anati, Shalini, Charace, Fazlin etc etc.
I know they can make it.

Have faith people!

Ok, Iffa shut the hell up!
You're giving hope to people when you yourself said you're hopeless?!
Damn Iffa, SHUT UP!

My prelims is no good either, but what i know, i improved a lot.
And with that, i'm gonna work extra hard and smart cause i know i can make it! =)

No matter what happens within 29 days, i have to work it through so that i can leave the school next year with good grades! =)

Plus, Graduation Day is nearing, Prom Night is in November.
So, i have to work it through.

Anyway,
LANTERN FESTIVAL IS TODAY right?
So,
Happy Celebrating it!!!

Ok, this is just too random.

CIAO!

Duni Birthday

2007-09-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

18 September 2007
My sister, Iffah Hazirah, turned 12!!!

All the best for PSLE sis, and i'm so sure you're gonna make it!!!

This week has been a hell of week.
Did you notice my eye-bags there?!
My class is turning into a SCREAM CITY.

And i'm gonna be like this.

On a brighter note, Mum boaught for me Taufik's new album!!!
-clapclapclap-
Listen to this song, simply FIRST! =)

Hehehehe.Ok, i miss my FIKNATIC SISTAZ!!! Ciao baby!!!

Can't Take It.

2007-09-15T14:46:00.000+08:00

I know i'm suppose to be on HIATUS but, i think i need this blog to rant or just type crap.

Anyway, Prelims over, don't ask how it was, just that, i managed it.
I'm so glad it's staurday, and finally i have a lil' bit of rest, been having lack of sleep for the past few weeks.
Anyhow, life as a YTSS student still continues, won't stop till Os i guess.

12 september was TUS birthday.
Gave her a big lollipop and a teddybear.
Hope she likes it and even though we just finish maths paper2 that day,
we still had to bash-ed her up!
Her birthday turned out to an EGGILICOUS 17th BIRTHDAY!!

Hope you like your birthday HALIMATUS aka Fazlin. =)

And, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADAN to all the Muslims.
how time pass by so fast..

Unbelieveable.

2007-09-06T17:02:00.000+08:00

You have to try this out!
It is freaking true!!

Anyway, we had lots of fun in school, studying!
I must say, my revisions are getting more fun with the encouragement from Shalini, Hidayu and Praveena!
And, can you believe it, TOMORROW is already FRIDAY!!!
Bloody hell fast and even so, i feel that i have not studied enough for prelims and also O'Levels.

I need more time, can time don't past so fast?
Oh, speaking of which, i need to do my art boards.

We are sisters from different parents....=)

Yes, the girl up there is my twin soul.
You make me smile pooch. =]

BUZZING OFF.

Through The Rain.

2007-09-03T19:22:00.000+08:00

Through The Rain.

When you get caught in the rain,
With nowhere to run,
When you're distraught and in pain,
Without anyone.
When you keep crying to be saved,
But nobody comes,
And you feel so far away,
That you just can't...

Find your way home.
You can get there alone.
It's okay.
What you say is...

I can make it through the rain.
I can stand up once again.
On my own.
And I know,
That I'm strong enough to mend.
And everytime I feel afraid,
I hold tighter to my faith.
And I live one more day,
And I make it through the rain.

And if you keep falling down,
Don't you dare give in.!
You will arise, safe and sound.
So keep pressing...

On steadfastly,
And you'll find what you need,
To prevail.
What you say is...

I can make it through the rain.
I can stand up once again.
On my own.
And I know,
That I'm strong enough to mend.
And everytime I feel afraid,
I hold tighter to my faith.
And I live one more day,
And I make it through the rain.

And when the wind blows,
And shadows grow close,
Don't be afraid.
There's nothing you can't face.
And should they tell you,
You'll never pull through,
Don't hesitate.
Stand tall and say...

I can make it through the rain.
I can stand up once again.
On my own.
And I know,
That I'm strong enough to mend.
And everytime I feel afraid,
I hold tighter to my faith.
And I live one more day,
And I make it through the rain

And I can make it through the rain,
And stand up once again.
And I'll live one more day,
And I, I can make it through the rain.
Oh yes, you can.
You're gonna make it through the rain.

Note To Self: Get through the rain and believe in yourself!
You can't stop doing it now.
Even though you feel that nobody cares and
you have no friends just tell yourself to stop thinking of it.
What matters most is the BIG o!
You can start worrying all that when the BIG o is over!
Come on Iffa, stand up and tell yourself you're gonna do it!

IFFA HAS TO BELIEVE IN HERSELF
then
PEOPLE CAN BELIEVE IN HER!

Teachers Day

2007-09-01T17:36:00.000+08:00

Happy Teachers' Day! =]

Lets be frank, my class did not have a great celebration like the other 5N classes.
Yes, i'm JEALOUS!
It's written all over my face!

Ok, i think i should give them credits for putting up the performance and yes, it was good.
And, i have to really thank Hafiz & Affan for the short but cute performance!
It was simply amazing guys!
Video, no comments cause i was the one who made it.
But, i don't understand.
Why, after being together for 3years and we are still individuals or cliques?

I still don't get it?
Wasn't there enough time for us to bond with each other?
Wasn't it eonugh for Ms Goh S.L to bond us together?
Or is it just that, we, the top 5N class just did not have the time to get along?

Tell me classmates, tell me?And, why can't we, if the other 2 classes can...

And Shalini, there isn't much photos on that day.
So, should i really put it up?
We did not even bother to take a class photo despite me repeating it.
How sad isn't it?

Class party?
Among all the 3 5N classes, we are the only class without a party going on?
I wonder how the teachers are feeling?

Shit!
urgh!

And, i think i got too stress up that i went for a hair cut!
Which i think now, don't make sense!

Plus, my head is not helping!
It's been aching all three days long and it's getting irritating!!!

so, are we gonna cry on Graduation Day cause we're gonna leave the class or our cliques?
answer for yourselves dear classmates.

Nah, here's the pictures!

See, i told you 5N2 is bloody PATHETIC!!!!
Should i just give up or what?!

But, Vernice...
Thanks for the Bluberry Cheesecake, it was really GOOD!

It really touched my heart that day. =)

BUZZING OFF!

shit!

2007-08-26T21:59:00.000+08:00

Ever felt so lonely all of a sudden?
And that, everyone in the world hates you.

And you feel so bloody useless/hopeless.
Somehow, nobody could help you up from this fall....

ALL THE BEST TO MY FRIENDS,
FOR PRELIMS TOMORROW.

Weee....

2007-08-25T19:39:00.000+08:00

I'm a happy kid today!

Went to Woodlands Regional Library to study today, with Shalini.
Met LeeTeng and YuanYu, accidentally.

It was a GREAT and MARVELLOUS hours of studying.
Well, even though we did not accomplish much, i understood Chemistry even more.
Does that count?
hehehe...

Thanks for the great company and day twerps! =)

I'm also happy cause....
I MET ILA!!!

Like, finally.
After so many months, i met her.
Accidentally also.
So surprised.

Ok, i had lots of fun today.
I can't be bothered with simple, stupid and nonsense stuffs anymore.

I'm focusing on STUDIES,STUDIES,STUDIES & O'LEVEL!!!!

Have a great weekend!
=)

Shit, what more secrets do you keep from me.

2007-08-22T20:02:00.001+08:00

Urgh, i can't stand it!
I can't stand them/him/her!!!

[rant:/ korang ingat korang jek ade hati gan perasan? aku nie takde? eh, tolong la eh! jangan ingat orang diam, hati orang tak sakit! eh, tak tahan tau layan perangai kau tu yang mcm ape ape entah! macam mane la aku boleh jadik kawan kau nie? macam mane la kau boleh jadik kawan rapat kau nie? tak paham la!!! macam la kau tak tau korang ade byk rahsia gan aku. mengumpat aku mcm2. eh, aku tau la. tu pasal la, aku da naik malas nak layan kau! kau ingat, aku tak leh marah? aku suka2, ketawe2 tak leh marah, eh... semue org ade perasaan tau!!!! da la, aku marah pon kau bukan nyer tau! aku nie kan, kau buat mcm badut!!!! pegi berambus!!! /endofrant]

Ok, enough.

I try my very best to please people, but people just do their very best to ___________ people!
SICKENING IDIOTS %(&($$#%$*^(^)*_&^%@(

URGH!

O' LEVELS ORAL!!

2007-08-21T21:12:00.000+08:00

tee
English O'level Oral is TOMORROW!!!

I'm excited and nervous.
Just can't wait for it to be done and over with.
So, i shall give my very very best shot for english cause i know i'll score for this!

I had a great time with Shalini today, during our self-study period.
We spoke as if, we have not spoke to each other for like 100 years and i pour out quite alot of things yet, there is still some which i keep it a secret.

Shalini, THANKS, for always being there!
And, bout that idiotic guy, just get him out of your head.
He's not worth it, such idiots should be forgotten and dump it in a place called dustbin!

I'm always here for you, and i know you know it.
IDIOTIC GUYS LIKE HIM ARE NOT MEANT TO BE TREATED NICELY!!!!

So, smile and always know that friends are always there for you!
=)

~~Now, i miss my BIATCH!!!!~~

Ok, ciao!

Life.

2007-08-19T04:22:00.000+08:00

Ever felt, like you can't speak to your ~~best~~friends?
When actually you have spoken to them about anything and everything. I felt that, yesterday morning.
Anyway,
I just finished studying Chemistry revision, yes, from 11.30pm till 3.45am.

It keeps me moving, every single second this head of mine is telling me to continue and don't give up.
Don't get influence with nonsense till O'Levels.
Did i mention, i'm addicted to Nescafe?which i think is not good!

And my blog song is really encouraging me on.
Oh, ATTENTION TO 5N2 PEOPLE
the class presentaion video and pictures will be up at my multiply after Monday.
So wanna see it, ripped it or whatever, just take it from there.

ADIOS people!

Malay O'Level Results!

2007-08-14T23:54:00.000+08:00

Urgh!
Ok, i got a B3 again, but at least i've improved my oral, a distinction.
Though i thought i'll get a merit again.
So, should i retake?

Seriously, i don't want to.
My other subjects are calling me and wanting me to pamper them or should i say they pamper me? HeH!

Cikgu Suri was asking whether am i bored of malay, i said no.
I've always loved malay, but i think 3 times taking malay and getting the same grades is not fun!
So, i hope the teachers and principal won't force me to retake malay.
I surrender!!

And, like Aziq said, it's a WAKE UP CALL!!!
I've already starting to sleep really late, like 2am and waking up at 5am.
And, all i need is cold Nescafe.

Anyway, met Kak aNNa' today after school!
I LOVE THE PREZZIES!!!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH SISTAZ!!!

I can't wait to read the book, and it came at the right time.
I just finished my another malay book.
Oh, plus the $20 book voucher! I so totally like it!!!

What more?
Hmmm, bookmark and bracelet.
Just simply simple yet, pretty!
Thanks. =)

Ok, off to Geography Manufacturing notes.
CIAO babes!

NDP '07

2007-08-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

Thanks, for tagging people.
And, though it still is difficult to face teachers/schoolmates and classmates in school, i'm trying to put on a really THICK skin!!

Thanks to Charace, Cristy, Kak aNNa', Huiyun, Niki, iLa, Kak Nisa, Aziqa, Yiling, Shalini, Ayu, Praveena and Shmitha.

Thanks for making me feel better.
Though, i really didn't expect Niki and Cristy to tag but ya, i'm grateful you all did.

Ok, i'm trying to put the sorrows away so, lets get on with life.

National Day 2007

What can i say?
The whole mrt was packed with REDS and WHITES.
And, i was rushing to get to Suntec Lobby at 5pm.

It was gonna be our last day together and everyone knew we're gonna miss those Saturdays.
All those cam-whoring sessions and crazy times we had.
And so, we made use of that Thursday really well!

We had fun, cam-whoring, laughing, tidying up oneself, talking and just crapping away.
It was simply fun.

We had a group photo, taken by the lawyer, damn i forgot his name.
And, it was the best one cause every single one of the pledge-taker was there and we were wearing our uniforms. Yes, i enjoyed it.
Not to mentioned, out faces was on tv.
I think i was seen shaking hands with the President. =)

I took lots of pictures, but i'm too lazy to edit and upload.
And, did i mentioned i will miss all of them?
Well, life goes on.

Must i elaborate on how i got home?
Urgh, i don't want to.

Anyway, results for Malay would be out next week and i'm not feeling anything.
Though, i really hope i would get A1.
Pray hard, all the best for Mal, Aziqa & Anati.

I'm sure you guys will get the results which is satisfactory, and if you didn't get it.
Take a second one, though i strongly disagree.

Pictures would be up maybe, next time.
CIAO! :]

If Only They Understood...

2007-08-08T19:18:00.000+08:00

I swear, if i could be invisble i will be, until i finish my O'Levels.

And, today, on 08.08.07, Wednesday, is the most embarassing moment of my entire secondary school life.
I'M NOT KIDDING!!

And, if i could tell my parents off how i felt during the pledge-taking i will.
But, sorry to inform myself,
MY PARENTS IS NOTHING LIKE HOW I IMAGINE THEM TO BE.

I thought they would understand, but no they didn't.
Then who understood me, my form-teacher and my clsoe friends.

I know i cocked things up and i know it's my fault, but is it that difficult to ask for support from my own parents? Was what i did such a big thing?
Everybody makes mistakes and i know this one is an unforgettable one.

If my parents think what i did embarassed them, then how do they think i'm feeling?
The one who made the mistake, the one who could never face the whole school plus some VIPS
just to lead them to say the pledge?

No, leading the pledge is NEVER EASY!
No wonder NDP recorded the pledge, so we could just lip-sync it.
To ensure that, nobody cock things up.

Ma, if you think it's so bloody simple and easy to say it in front of maybe 1000+ students, why don't you do it Ma?
Why can't you atleast support me and say some good stuffs, instead of demoralising me.
And, maybe now, i could never face you again as a daughter, cause i've never make you proud.
I can never be the daughter that you wanted me to be, see, i told you.
I can never that daughter.

Like you said, I'M A FAILURE and i will never achieve what i want in the near future.

WOW, MA!
You made such a wonderful and amazing speech that it still am in my head.
It's already been saved in my head and i don't think i can delete it away.

Ma, am i that bad?
Am i such a loser that you're too ashamed to tell people i'm your daughter now?

Pa, do you really understand me?
Do you really actually know how i felt and what i was thinking when i did the pledge? YOU GUYS REALLY THOUGHT I WANTED TO DO THIS?I'm right, you never knew me. Never.

Did you, my parents know, how much i told myself to do the very best,
don't mess things up so that i can make you guys proud?
Did you know how scared, nervous and worried i was?
Did you guys actually noticed that?

Maybe, it's true.
I am a LOSER, FAILURE, what else Ma?

No, nobody understood how i felt.
And, you guys thought i was asking for sympathy?
Uh?
All i need is some support and encouragement from both of you.
Did you all know that?

And i thought i would get some love when you guys reached home, but no.
All i got was words of demoralising oneslf.

Well, yeah.
I don't belong to this family.
I only bring shame to the Abu Jalal family.

Sorry Ma and Pa.
I should have just got knocked down by the car, then die and like Ma said.
ROT IN HELL.
So you won't be ashame anymore.
What should i do, to make both of you have faith in me again?
Huh Ma, Pa?
Tell me.

Sometimes, i feel like i'm loved by everyone, then one second later, i'm being hated from people all around me.

I just wanna migrate, or maybe be insvisble for the rest of my life.
And no, it wasn't a mistake, it was a VERY BIG one!

I'll just have to buy a mask and wear it on Monday.

Sweet Seventeen.

2007-08-03T19:50:00.000+08:00

MY SWEET SEVENTEEN!

It's 3rd August, i'm finally seventeen!
I won't say much about my sweet sventeen, but one word will,
FABULOUS!!!

Let me thank people first;

My Family - Mama, Papa, Duni, Nusya, Abang, Naufal & Nenek.
Aunties,Cousins&Uncles - Cik Nan, Mak Uteh, Yan, Ada, Abang Dino, Kak Nor
Those whom i consider as my family - Cik Lili, Nabilah, Yana,
Fiknatics & Sistaz - Kak aNNa, Kak Nisa, Kak Myra, Anati, iLa,Mal'
Friends - The Whole of 5N2, Lindah, Senorita(friendster), Irfany, PeiXuan, Lina, Maisarah, Fizi, Fai, Alwiyah, BingCong, Ferra, YiLing, etc.
Papa's Friends - Cik Fazli & wife, Abang Nasrul & GF, Ibu & Ayum

I hope i didn't miss anyone.
If i did, just know that, ur sms/comment/message/call etc really made my day. It's the thought that counts and i really apperciate it!

SPECIAL THANKS TO;

MY BELOVED BITCHES AND BASTARDS
-Charace aka Biatch
-Fazlin aka Halimatus
-Firli aka Ame
-Silva aka Blackie Chan.

Thank you so much for spending two hours doing the card and buying those girly sweets.
I love them!

But, i think i love the bash the most!
Silva, why weren't you there?!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

&MY BELOVED FAB. FRIENDS
-Shmitha aka Mysterious
-Shalini aka Pooch
-Hidayu aka Giler
-Praveena aka blur
-Edmund aka Demon
-LeeTeng aka Polly
-Anthony aka BERENGSEK
Thanks for the surprise, you guys were GOOD!
I love the card and i love the cake. =)
I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO!!!

1 August 2007 was something memorable which i will never forget!
A birthday celebration which have made me realised that nobody will replace you people!

I'll just post up the pictures and mind you, there's alot.
Did i mentioned i got bash-ed?!

Fab. Friends card.

My Bitches & Bastards card. (part of it.)

Halimatus & Biatch.

Cam-whoring session in the toilet.

A before picture.

And then it came..

A group photo but Silva is missing!

Biatch and I.

An AFTER photo.

I was being bash-ed with flour, Kikapo, Water & Milo crumbs.

No, i wasn't angry, i was actually enjoying it!
Though i got wet, my hair smells and i had to bear with it from Sembawang to Yishun.

They did not get for me a cake, but made it at that moment itself.

That is why, i love my friends, too much!

Presents, there's not alot but that it's not too little either.This year, the biggest present i recieved is the bash-ed that i got and the memories that will always stay with me. THANKS BITCHES,BASTARDS,FRIENDS,IDIOTS,FAMILY& EVERYONE WHO HAVE MADE 1 AUGUST, A SPECIAL DAY.

Gonna miss all the pledge-takers.

2007-07-29T14:04:00.000+08:00

I'm superbly busy with almost everything yet i am enjoying it.

You must enjoy then you can finish it.

Lots of things happened, and i'm just plain lazy too type.
I'll just summarise it.

:Last Sunday was Mum's birthday.
I wore something which i never wore before that day, especially for her.
Anyway, on the way back home from Suntec, my dad's car broke down, at the 2nd lane of the expressway.

IMAGINE THAT.

You know how scared everyone was?
Dad was trying to stay calm, mum was panic-ing.

Luckily people came to the rescue.
Me?
I was laughing cause, i was sacred. don't ask why.

The whole thing happen so fast and i'm just happy that everyone is safe.
Hopefully nothing like that happen again.
Even typing it down, is making me scared.

:Currently busy with boards, dateline, 31st July.

Glaria & Gordan

Gordan & I

Me, Glaria, Derrick(officer), Gordan & Cik Rohani

:Really happy that NDP will be coming yet, i'm gonna miss all the plegde-takers.
I'm gonna miss GORDAN, GLARIA, CIK ROHANI, ANDY and all of them!!!
Good things come to an end, i know.

:O'Levels is less than 3months, PRELIMS IS LIKE JUST NEXT DOOR!!!!

:I'M GETTING OLD!!!

wahahahahaha.
I'm simply going crazy right now.
Oh, met this Fizi guy.
Nice and crazy fella.

BIATCH & POOCH, we're just friends. PERIOD

I miss cam-whoring!!!
Lalalalalalalalala!!!!

So, the only way to cure this sickness is to cam-whore on my own.
wahahahahaha.
IFFA HAZIQAH aka QUEENIE, is simply crazy right now.

Ok, off to my boards!
=)

Pissed Off.

2007-07-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

URGH!!!

I'm pissed off.
I told you that i'm fine yet you kept bugging and asking.
I told you that everything is okay and it doesn't concern you,
yet you still want to know and be a BIG KAPO.

Now, see what happen.
You are such a jerk to me now.

Biatch, i think you know who i'm referring to.
Such an irritating idiot!

Seriously, i can't stand someone who keep asking me the same question but i just can't tell him/her the answer. Maybe because i don't want to tell or i'm just PERFECTLY ALRIGHT.

I know, you're just concern but once i said it, then that's it.
DON'T PUSH THE LIMIT!
And, you're telling me, you understand me?
Huh! Get real la, you haven't even know me for a month and you tell me you understand me?

WHAT A BIG JOKE!

I don't know if you're reading this, but if you are, just get it in your head that i just hate it when people force me to say something.
Oh, and you still don't know me.
Even my close friends or best friends don't know me after 2-3years and you tell me you understand me after knowing me less than a month.

Please la eh.

Ok, enough ranting.
I'm just freaking pissed.

Anyway, biatch is back.
WELCOME BACK SWEETS!!!!

Actually, i wanted to blog a happy post today, but cause of that person, i changed my mood. I'll blog some other day.

It's late, back to physics.
CIAO.

OH MY GOD!

2007-07-21T09:29:00.000+08:00

There is 2 WOWS in this entry.

The first one.
Yes, this is my painting, after one an half months, i'm done with it.

ITS OVER!!!!

I think it's nice and very striking, but believe me, my other classmates ones are nicer.
I'm just glad its over but i still have the boards, it's killing me!!!
Whatever.

Second WOW, which i think has been the big HU-HA for pooch.

Is this,

My face is featured in MANJA.
For real.

So the malu and i've been repeating this for almost a million times in front of pooch.
Thanks to Aziq for letting me know.

I look so damn, nerdish and tembam.
Now, just look out for me on TV.

Urgh!!

Anyway, those people there, really make my saturday an interesting one.
It's staurday today and i have rehearsals, parents are coming down to watch!!!

Excited?
Ok la.

Bitch just flew off to Philipines this morning at 12.
I'm missing her already, come back soon bitch!!

Ok, ciao babeh.

Aching.

2007-07-13T20:05:00.000+08:00

I think it's been ages since i blog.
Sorry for the short MIA.
I'm just so tired, from school and life.

At the same time, i think i'm getting used to it.
I'm getting a hang at POA, maths, english oral, humans and all...
Pretty alright for term 3.

However, heaven will be ending soon.
English Prelim oral is on the 19th, Malay LC is on monday plus tests coming one after another.
So, let's just say, everything would be okay.
Let's look on the postive side.

Anyway, today i had the worst EMO breakdown.
Just wanna be alone but at the sametime wanting to have someone to just make me laugh, ohmygod! what kind of feeling is that?!
Pooch and biatch did not get the whole breakdown but its alright, maybe it was my fault too.

I never want to tell them what i'm feeling cause i know,
they are already stress about their own stuffs.

I'm looking forward fro tomorrow! Cause it's NDP rehearsal though trust me its pretty tiring, but having great company will never bore me.

I want to watch HARRY POTTER, please.... biatch, pooch? anyone?

Here are some pictures which i took, edit and find it interesting.

Taken last week, during NDP rehearsal.

Was cam-whoring.

Anyway, i miss cam-whoring with pooch, biatch, sistaz and everyone else!

I've got more pictures, click on my album.

OUT people!

Keeps Me Going

2007-07-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

Maybe the reason why i am still holding on and keep getting up after every fall is because of the people who cares, love and have faith in me.

With all that endless support, how could i ever let them down by saying I QUIT?

Quitting is not the final answer, no quitting is never a solution for me!

And because of that, i manage to finish my canvas, yes! I'm proud to say that IT'S DONE!!!

After nearly two months, i'm done with that canvas, but that's only 60%, i still have my 7-8 boards to complete.

Next week, is my target to hand in everything!

Without the help from my dearest losers, pooch, shmi, ayu and even my parents, i don't think i could finish it, as fast.
I thought, i would finish around next two weeks.

Anyway, after such a long day and you get home to see a manja coverage of yourself, really made my day. Maybe this is what, sistaz are for. To make you happy no matter how, where or when.

Thanks sistaz, and seriously people, visit our album. You'll be laughing at the end of the day.
A good antidote for a gloomy day.

=) ciao!
[=edit
i freaking want this!!! can?!!! One full set, for only RM95, Sing $$ would be, $40++!!I'm going crazy, i want the books!! Pa, Ma, can? Please!!!When can go Johor? Tomorrow can?
PLEASE.....!
Bahhh!!!!
/edit]

Overdue Pictures.

2007-07-01T21:01:00.000+08:00

Here are the overdue pictures.

METEORITE=CRAZY=DIZZY

FUN FUN FUN!!!

Thanks, for being such a great sport YILING!!!

Two pictures which i find quite unique.

Don't you think so Charace?
The rest of the pictures are located at my multiply, check out my links. So, Charace, Shalini, Yiling, anyone who wants the pictures, just ripped it from there.
After YT FIESTA.A clue why an SAF officer called.

I must say, even though there is a huge gap between me and them, they are GREAT bunch of people who i can really look up to.
Here are two pictures which i find really candid.

My brother and I. Do we have the siblings look?
Adios! I'm tired!.

Damn Fun.

2007-06-30T23:23:00.000+08:00

I have lots of pictures to update, but luck is not on my side.
I can't find my USB cable.

Anyway, YT FIESTA was great fun i tell ya.
The Meteorite, was super bloody hell fun! It's not scary, but dizzy.
I took thrice, and i even did the Gladiator with YiLing.
Psst, Charace!!! Let's ride it again and irritate people with our laughters.

And, i think nobody understands what i'm typing cause,
people don't even know what is Meteorite or Gladiator.
Well, except for the YTzens.

WAHAHAHAHAHA.

Ok, i am tired, when i'm tired i can get really crazy yet not sleepy.

Once, i found my USB, some people would get a clue why an SAF officer called me.
Because, of that thing, i'm going home late every Saturday.

Ok, OUT!

THE MAKEOVER.

2007-06-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

Everyone should know by now that the Fiknatic Sistaz went for a makeover at Kak Kqeera house last sunday.

Thanks to them, we were such gorgeous babes that day.
Especially Kak Shad, she look SO different, and she was so much fairer than i was.
Everyone look beautiful, if only my camera didn't went dead. urgh!

I had a WONDERFUL time, after being in school for one whole month without any rest, i finally enjoyed and spent time with my sistaz.
You guys are the best!!!

Here are some of the pictures, that i took from our album.

Don't you think we look like sisters or long-lost sisters? =)

I don't why, but i love this photo!!!!

Visit our ALBUM, click on links, to see more.

Now, i can't wait to get hold of my pictures!!! Kak aNNa` i want mine!!!
hehehehehehehe.

I showed my parents some of the pictures and thier first comment was,
"So the Cina!!"

kwang kwang kwang!!!

Anyway, today was malay o'level oral. It went smoothly and i was the last one.
How boring it was, plus it was nerve - wreacking.
But, whatever!!! Everything is over and i'm happy with what i had said.
Insya-allah i get a better grade than before.

Tomorrow is YT FIESTA!!!!
I'm going to have lots of fun and cam-whore like a freak with my besties and losers!!!
Plus, take up all the rides!!! YEEEEEHAAAA!!!

PIMPLE OUTBREAK!!!

2007-06-21T20:51:00.000+08:00

Photoshoot is less than 3 days and i have a FREAKING PIMPLE on my forehead.

Such a great time to appear now, isn't it you NASTY lil thing!!!???

Sistaz, don't ask me what i'm wearing, i've got no time to think. Been busy with school, school and more school. I can't believe that i'm ignoring tomorrow's retest.

I mean, what is the use of having one when no one studied?
Believe me when i say, NO ONE!!!
People can even copy for the comb. humans retest this morning, and so i ask, what's the use?

I just don't understand teachers nowadays and they freaking know the reason why we don't study. Busy with coursework of course!!!

URGH!!

Anyway, i got a call from SAF today.
JENG JENG JENG!!!
That's something which i can't say, my lips are zip.
But, i'm really happy and excited.

Let's just say my weekeneds are fully booked!

I'm still finding a way to get rid of this PIMPLE!!!
pssst, can postponed photoshoot till my pimple is GONE?!! hehehe..
URGH!!

OUT.

LACK OF SLEEP.

2007-06-15T16:06:00.000+08:00

Having an art camp of 3days 2nights, is indeed tiring yet fun.

You can choose not to sleep and do your art or sleep and waste your time cause the deadline is less than a month.

Amazing teachers nowdays threaten their students.

Anyway, art camp was alright, managed to finish my layouts currently painting my canvas, hoping to finish it REALLY SOON!!!

I have lots more to do, like study for my retest and other subjects.

Like, i advise my siblings, NEVER TAKE ART AS A SUBJECT.
It will waste your time and kill you.

I'm lacking of sleep, and my plan now is to visit my dreamland.

Anyway,

Happy Advanced 10th Birthday Nusya, you IRRITATING SISTER!!!

and

Happy Belated Birthday Sharon!!!
It's been really long since i met you, anyway, stay happy. =)

Ok, off to dreamland now.

OUT!

P/S: APM today!!! Must watch!!! =)

Got Taufik-ed.

2007-06-10T17:49:00.000+08:00

I love this video!!!
ARGH!!

I just got TAUFIK-ED!!!
After such a long time, i'm feeling it.

Taufik is getting better in his malay, SO MUCH BETTER!!!
TWO THUMBS UP!!

I can't wait for the telecast!!!

Sorry for the "exclamation marks".
Obviously, Iffa here just went gu-gu-ga-ga over Mr Soulman.

-SCREAMS-

Anyway, Gita Gutawa is so damn lucky to be singing with two famous and great singers.
And, she is like only, 15yrs old?
What i observe, she has a very high pitch voice.
Siti pon kalah tau!

All there of them did great.
Especially Taufik.

ARGH!!
Iffa just got TAUFIK-ED!!

Spoilt & Random.

2007-06-08T14:11:00.000+08:00

A few days ago, to be exact yesterday, my mum told me, my auntie bought an MP4 for my cousin which is only in primary 1 and a few more modern gadgets for his son which is only in primary3.

Sure, there is nothing wrong buying for them but do you think a primary1 know how to use it? Sure, you struck lottery and buying it for them to show you love them, but isn't it better to buy something which is more for her age. A book maybe? Or a barbie doll?

Oh, fyi, it's an Samsung Mp4.

What i can say is, these generation of children is lucky and spoilt. I've seen how my cousin cried and make a whole scene at the shopping centre just because he didn't get what he want and trust me, it's not CUTE!

My younger has the latest gameboy and i've never like it when my parents bought it for him, such a waste of money. He's only in primary1 and he has all kinds of gameboy, why can't he stuck on using the old one. It's not that bad either, all gameboys are the same.

I think i should tell these people who create gameboys to stop producing new products so parents save some money. =)

Anyway, i went to Johor yesterday.
Watch Pirates of The Caribbean, yet again.
Had dinner at Singgah Selalu and i looked across, Danga Bay, bright as always.

I even imagine a scene when Taufik performs and fiknatics from Singapore and even Johor would be shouting his name and singing along with him.
Me, being there, well, fat hope la.

But, i've been hinting to my parents to have lunch at Danga Bay on Sunday.
Hahahaha, and yes my mum gets it.
However, the hope of going there on Sunday, is still foggy.

APM today!!!
All the best to TAUFIK, he must win!
Will be tuning in to Era.

I miss my Fikantic Sistaz and i'm not kidding.

Looking forward to 24th June then.

Oh, i finally bought my Flying Kiss.
Nass Alina Noah just freaking ROCK my world!!

OUT!

Photography.

2007-06-06T18:17:00.000+08:00

I'm not gonna talk about art, cause there isn't much to blog about.
Only thing is maybe, Ms Kwa did not come and i have not start on my layout.
-SCREAMS-
I'm like the slowest!!

But whatever.
Hidayu had a photography session today, since she was VERY FREE.
And i took some random pictures, when i got really bored of art.

Taken by Hidayu.

Colours of Life.

Both of this was taken a few months back.

This was taken early this year.
Such lovely sight, how often do you see a rainbow huh?

Till then, I'M OFF!
LUVS!

WeirdO.

2007-06-04T20:07:00.000+08:00

Today, was filled with ART!

8.30am to 5pm.

The whole day art, but it was fun. I must start loving it anyway.

After blogging, i'm gonna do a development for transportation and draw my face.

I can even imagine how it looks like...Eeeee!!!

Anyway, congrats to
Mr Soulman

for this

and for getting to Brunei and even having an event at DangaBay, Johor.

Such great things happening to him and as a fan, i am happy for him.
He is known overseas, isn't that just great?!

It's been such a long time seen i went for his event and met up with the fiknatics.
Since the starting of this year.

Anyway, to Aziqa, i'm so sorry i didn't make it for your sis wedding.
Something came up but obviously most of the sistaz enjoyed themselves.
Will meet up on 24th June.

To know Taufik is performing at APM, and it won't to shown LIVE at Suria,
i feel like killing whoever planned it.
Plus, when i hear Fiza O talking bout his special performance at APM,
i feel like killing Fiza O.

Why?
Cause, for one reason, i'm not going.

It's not my parents, it's me.
I get jealous then, i'm fine after a few minutes.

Last year, i will keep telling my friends, saying i wanna go
and i miss the Sistaz and Mr Soulman,
but now, poof!

I just forget bout it the next moment.

I find it funny.
Somehow, things change cause of one thing,
O'LEVELS.

Just cause of that.
I'm too lazy for everything, except study and go to school.
To even just go out and buy food, i'll dragged myself.

Even my mum finds my OUTDATED!

It's freaky yet, i find it quite neat.
Cause, i save money and i spend more time with my brother.

How fun is that?
Anyway, people.

I'M OUT!
LUVS!

Depressing.

2007-06-01T20:50:00.000+08:00

Schoolmates are leaving for Vietnam Fieldtrip tomorrow morning.

Must be anxious huh?

Anyway, to Yiling, Poochy, Mizrahi and the rest who are going...

Have a safe fieldtrip. You will definately enjoy it.
Go there safely, come back safely ok.

Poochy, i'll wait for your hug.

I'll miss you.

For Fazlin, have a good and exhausting expedition to Taiwan on Sunday alright?
(If you are reding this of course.)

Everybody is going for fieldtrip and holidays, me?

I'm stuck at school doing art.

And times like this, i miss Yunnan.

I miss my Zang Group.

I miss the meals that the Islam family had together.
I miss those nonsense times we spent.

I miss Tiger Leaping Gorge.

I miss especially the little children there.

I miss the nice scenery that we saw which we would never get to see in Singapore.

I miss it.
I wanna travel, around the world.

Must be nice huh?

Well, i'm feeling down.
Really down, i don't know why.

Maybe cause, i heard my dad's friend died suddenly.
If you read the malay newspaper.

The artist, the late Mohammad Din Mohd.

My dad's friend and i could still clearly remember how nice he was to us (READ:MY FAMILY).
Looking at how creative he is, just like my dad.

Suffered from the same illness as my dad.
I can never imagine how i would be if my dad left us, left the world.

Heard from mum, it was a really depressing scene at his house.
One of the child, is my age, taking O'Levels this year. How saddening she is, going on with life without a father by her side furthermore she's taking art. Wouldn't that remind her of her dad?

Just like me.

If my dad were to leave me at this situation, i'll go crazy.
I can't imagine what would REALLY happen if my dad really goes, suddenly.

But, Suraya, stay strong, even though you might not be reading.
Seseorang yang hidup pasti akan pergi.
Even though i can't feel how you are feeling but, just stay strong.
Berat orang memandang, berat lagi orang yang memikulnya.

I'm glad and bersyukur that i still have my family and friends around me.
Nothing means more than them.

If God were to give a choice whether to take their life away or mine?
I'll ask HIM to take mine.
I'm willing.
I'll do anything for my family and friends.

It's a depressing entry.
I'll end here.

O'Levels & Movie!

2007-05-29T15:59:00.000+08:00

Malay O'Levels was ok.
Though paper 1 was a lil' bit difficult, and lots of my friends said it killed them.
But, paper 2 was alright.

I have hope on this one, to get an A1.

I don't want to retake again, make this the last!

Today, was a boring day.
Had a counselling session, was okay. Had fun talking to the counsellor.

Anyway, i miss malay intensive.

You know, all those crazy moments.
Firli nonsense talks, Fazlin cannot control laughter and our very talkative times.
And, our discussion for answers.
I miss it.

Our "HOLY" book, our beloved white table and our Cikgu Suri with her stress look.

Oh, how can i forget when cikgu says, 'Bertenang Iffa, bertenang.'

Hahahaha, this year intensive malay is so way much better than last year's!
Thanks to you crazy freaks! Hahahaha, what would i be without you guys huh?

After O'Levels malay, the whole Sec4e and 5n watched a movie.

PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN 3: AT WORLD'S END!!!!!

It's for free.

But, the movie was kind long and it gets boring. Also, it's confusing.
I don't recommand you all watching it, but if you wanna watch
Orlando Bloom or Johnny Depp, the i assure you, both of them look HOT in that movie!

Like this, this was during the premire.

This?

Or better, this?

Biatch, Johnny Depp is HOT!!!

Hahahahaha, ok that's it. Off to revision.

Off i Go!

2007-05-26T15:58:00.000+08:00

I need to go.
Far away from this world!

Far far away from my stress life.

No, that 'STRESS' should get away! I don't want to hear, see, feel or taste STRESS.

I wanna be happy and crazy again.

SHOO!!!! Go away you STRESS word!

And, cause of that, i need to go far far away from here.
I need to figure out how i'm gonna get rid of STRESS and be happy, once again.
I need to learnt how to manage it even when i'm feeling it.

I'll be back, when time comes.

All best for Mal', Aziqa, Anati, Tiq, Hazlinda, Sakinah, Biatch, Yiling, Shalini, Shmitha, Halimatus, Firli, Silva and myself for malay o'levels on monday.

Make it the first and the last taking MT o'levels.

LUVS!

Cuties!

2007-05-20T01:34:00.000+08:00

Not asleep yet.
Was going through some pictures, and found my nephews, yg bro and cousins pictures.

Kinda cheer-ed me up a lil bit there.

Here they are,

1.

Ryan.

2.

Diyana.

3.

Ada.

4.

Sufian.

5.

Naufal.

Now, people, who do you think among all 5 is the cutest?

Hahaha. Tag me!

Nights people, going to have a good sleep today!

LUVS!

Endurance

2007-05-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

I've been doing lots of thinking.
I'm still depressed and guilty.
So you know what i mean.

Anyway, today i was doing my malay revision for almost 5hrs.
And i cam across this,

kegagalan tidak mengenal siapa dan kejayaan itu milik sesiapa sahaja.
(failure recognise nobody and success belongs to anybody)

I was thinking about it for the a moment and yes, i find it true and i learnt,

every failure is ALWAYS a step to success.

I have to keep going, i can't give up.
I must achieve my ultimate dream and prove to everyone that i can do it!

I must do it, IFFA HAS NOT DIED.
She just
WOKEN UP FROM A NIGHTMARE.

To all taggers, thanks!
Thank you for all the encouraging words, you made me feel so much better and loved.

After being alone at home, i found out that i miss something,
I miss reading.
I want to start reading again and i recieved an email, saying that
Nass Alina Noah
just produced a new book called

FLYING KISS.
(sweet right the title, makes me wanna grab the book asap!)

Argh!! I want to get my hands on that book! I miss Nass Alina Noah stories, and i bet this book would be great. I haven't gotten the time to go the library to look for it.
Plus, that book is a series. Means its like Romeo VS Juliet. I miss reading!

Ok, i'm ranting nonsense and i don't care.
Not happy?
You can always close the window.

Ok, i wanna get back to malay.

LUVS!

I Had A REALLY Bad Day.

2007-05-17T19:29:00.000+08:00

I feel like dying.
Trust me, i'm not lying.

No matter how much i studied, no matter how much i put my effort to study and stay back to see teachers, i just can't get the results.

I feel so stressed up, not getting the results i want to show my mum that i did studied.
It seems so useless.
I feel so guilty not telling my mum my results when actually i've already gotten it like last week.

I'm not happy, i'm not laughing, i'm not crying, im just
DEPRESSED.

Why the hell am i studying so hard, when i'm not even getting the results?
Why am i so disappointed in myself?
Why am i even doing this??!!!

God, what am i blabbering?

I feel so stupid in 5N2.
I feel like a piece of SHIT in there.
All of them are freaking clever, no let me correct it, they are GENIUS!
Then, why am i there?

How can i even get to sec5?

I freaking hate myself, yes i do.
I feel like just ending my world and shut the chapter of my life.
It won't matter anyway, the world won't change without me. I'm just like a rubbish.

Friends,
they are trying my best to cheer me up. Epecially my MOON-STRUCK friends.
But, i can't seem to smile.
It's like as if, IFFA HAZIQAH is not even alive.

Oh, she just died!
ARGH!!!
I've gone competely mad and i feel like crying but i can't.

^%*(^(%#%#&* can somebody just shot me at the head!!
Life is like a freaking hell!

You know, i'm even thinking of not going for the photo-shoot.
Don't worry sistaz, it's just a thought, it won't harm our plans.

I'm sure my parents is gonna freak and scream at me when they know my results.

Secondary 5 life, is not fun at all.
Trust me on this.

ARGH!!!!!
I'm prepared for the worst.

SOMEBODY, KILL ME!!!!
ARGH!!!!

Greetings.

2007-05-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

This will be a short one.

Just wanna wish Kak aNNa` an advanced

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Love ya lots kak, may you have a wonderful day tomorrow.
Don't sad, sad or stress.
May you go crazy with WuZun and Rain. =)
Stay happy and crazy always.
Oh, i love your new layout!

Ok, till then.
LUVS!

A Long Entry.

2007-05-14T20:27:00.000+08:00

Let rewind to Saturday.

Had a GIRLS DAY OUT!
With my biatch aka Charace.
Met her at her place first, waited for her to choose her clothings which took her quite a long time. I'm not surprised, cause both of us are the same!

Finally, after 2hrs, we got out of her house.
Head to Orchard.
Ate at Food Republic, met her friend which we then got rid of.

Don't blame us, he was freaking quiet and nonsense.
Simply don't blend in with us.
And, you can never imagine what we did.

Anyway, we cam-whore at the new museum which was really cool.
I love that place, we should go there again biatch!!
Took lots of pictures, there's even one in the toilet.

I shall not blabber too much, here are the pictures.

Credits goes to Charace for some of the edited pictures and also the wonderful time that i had.
You are the best biatch. I'm just glad that we are back together! Hope you had yours too.
Lovin' Ya Always! =)

Fast forward to yesterday, Sunday aka Mother's Day.

Spent time with Mama at home.

Let her watch the powerpoint presentation that i made.

Let her listen to Christina Aguilera - I Turn To You.

She cried, awww... how touching rite.

Yes, i love my mama! The whole family shared money to buy her a prezzie. Oh, she loved it.
Guess what it is? =)
Then, head down to Swensen.

Oh, it was just so yummilicious!

I'll end this post with the pictures.
ENJOYS.

A hint of what we bought for Mama.

Will blog more bout school tomorrow since there is no school.
Hooray!

Ok people, keep rocking and keep holding on.
Since, i can drop dead any moment now.

LUVS.

Her Hero?

2007-05-08T20:55:00.000+08:00

I just fell in love...

with

Harry Osborn aka The New Goblin

Call me crazy, but he's simply HOT!!!

Go watch Spiderman 3, then you know.

Well, thanks to my mother, i got to watch it.

Peter Parker aka Spiderman, was kinda ok but Harry, just made me crazy.

yes, i'm that crazy!!!

BIATCH and pooch, go watch it. Fall in love with him. DO IT!!!

I'm going crazy!!!!

Ok, Iffa stop it.
But, i'm jealous cause the Japanese saw him in Tokyo and called him
"KAWAI" !!!!!!

Like, WTH!!!

I wanna call him,
"YOU'RE MY HERO!!!!"

Yes, definately, absolutely, confirm, he's hot.

Don't worry, Mr Soulman still has my support.

Ok, OUT PEOPLE!

Take Care!

Not Well.

2007-05-05T10:53:00.000+08:00

How great is getting sick when maths paper is on monday?
Having flu, cough, fever and headache is really not good, especially during this period.

Oh, did i mention POA paper yesterday was terrible? I'm preparing myself for the worst i tell ya. I gotta admit that Sec.4N life is way different then Sec.5N life.

It's horrible i tell ya.

Of all the papers that i sat for Mid-year, i think Malay was kinda ok and Geography was good.

Comb. Science, POA paper 2, English and Social Studies, oh let's just say its HORRIBLE TERRIBLE!!!

Now, i'm really worried for PRELIMS.

I'm left with POA paper 1, maths and Art.

I want this to end soon!!!

Ok, it's time to study with this heavy head and running nose.

Take care darlings.

2007-05-03T13:13:00.000+08:00

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok I miss you

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Song by Avril, really made me tear sometime. Obviously, biatch is also feeling the same too.
I don't know who i miss, maybe him? nah.. i miss TAUFIK!!! hahaha.

ok, off to geog now. Oh, between, physics paper today was horrible, terrible!!!

I'm gonna flung it like shit!!!

ARGH!!!!

I wanna commit suicide!!!

Study so bloody freaking hard for it, and what did i feel in return??!!!

ARGH!!!!

OUT LA!!!

happy-happy mood

2007-05-01T14:07:00.000+08:00

Yes, i'm happy. Not exactly, but happy.

I don't know why. Myabe cause today holiday, damnit. Tomorrow is SS paper, the most hatred paper ever, not to forget POA. I feel like just quitting but, i know i must keep going on.
Like, ARGH!!!

Anyway, life have been pretty ugly and nice at the same time.

I'm glad that i have my Biatch, Halimatus, Sliva and Firli to laugh with. Almost about anything. Yes, i'm glad that we are friends again, actually more than friends, we are best friends.
Still, i have my pooch to talk to when i'm not with the Biatch.
Shmi, i don't know. Some how i just feel that i'm so small compared to her. I'm like a drawf and she's the giant. We are like two different people. I just can't find myself to talk to her anymore.
No, i don't know the reason. I can't find the reason.

I feel so sad, yet glad at the sametime. Something is wrong with me.

On the other hand, Eddy and I are fine. We've been talking to each other on the phone like almost every night. Well, i'm gald that i have a friend like him. We can talk almost bout anything.
It takes time to get to know him more, so let's be patient ya biatch and pooch? hahahaha. =)

Ok, then. I've updated and i have to memorise my ss notes.

So till here, I'M OUT!!!

cam-whoring session

2007-04-28T21:37:00.000+08:00

Nothing is better than waking up at 7am on a Staurday, go to school to study Chemistry with Ms Kong and felt so much better and confident of yourself.

After paying attention to her for almost 1hr30mins, i felt that i can finally grabbed hold of what i need to know for the mid-year on monday. It felt so much better than great.

Heading to Woodlands Regional Library next, to revise and do the 5yr series was such a great time. Being away from the computer and tv for 3-4hrs made me realised how i can study, But, mind you, the library was damn packed and i had no choice but to sit on the floor and study. How cool is that??!!!

I did manage to finish 2 to 3 chapters until my biatch came. As you know, we can never study together. We would end up lauging and gossiping bout other people. So, we then head down to macdonalds since she haven eaten yet. At mac, we made such nonsense remarks bout people and to our surprise there was people gossiping bout us too. Such kapo people.

He wasn't even suppose to look even though you can see it, damn, guys are such perverts nowadays. NO OFFENCE TO ALL MY GUY FRIENDS.

Anyway, after eating we walk back to admiralty station since we need to exercise.
While walking, we cam-whore and oh, it was so beautiful!!!

Here are the pictures...

^^This is my most favourite one!!!

These are the overdue pictures when i went to Charace's house.

Great pictures...

Ok people, have a nice day ahead of you, enjoy your Labour Day holiday on Tuesday.
Those going for Taufik's event, enjoy it for me yeah? =)
All the best to my friends who are having mid-year now.

Ok then, i'm OUT!!

Joy.

2007-04-26T16:36:00.000+08:00

I was feeling rather down just now.
Browsing the net, aimlessly. I just wanna rest my head after english paper today.
To think that english paper was difficult, it was alright.
I was expecting a difficult passage, however some of the words are too difficult to understand.
Yet, i have faith i can make it, hopefully.

After reading Aziqa's blog, anyway....
get well soon dear, you don't want to get sick now.
it'll be horrible, believe me, i've experienced it.

I went to taufikbatisah.net why, cause Taufik blogged!!!!
I'm happy, it gave me a refreshing feeling.

I miss him, and to know he has an event on 1 May, i'm even more sad, i'm gonna miss it, yet again.
However, something got me excited, i think everyone who read it must be excited.
What about JAPAN???
I can't wait to know what's it about, come on Mr Soulman, tell us more!!!

I'm bored, cause my biatch is not online, neither is Shalini and Eddy is not here to entertain me.
I'm bored.
I miss my fiknatic sistaz.
And, i'm worried for my POA paper, can i just like skip it?

Okla, i'm OUT!!!

Not On Hiatus?

2007-04-24T19:00:00.000+08:00

I think i'm addicted to blogging, wait i've already been addicted to it.

Anyway, school is perfectly not alright. I shall not complain cause people will start changing my nick name to QUEEN COMPLAIN. So, i better not. Just have to go on with it till O'Levels come to an end.

Something had been bugging me.
It's about Shmi.

We used to have a lot of fun together.
Go crazy, talk nonsense, study together, go home from school together even, go toilet together.
But now, it seems like we don't even talk now. So seldom.
Is it cause i'm close to Charace that i am neglecting her?

Charace dear, i'm not blaming you. You never know how happy i am to finally be your girlfriend again. So, don't stray away from me like before ok? =]

However, i always try to have a lil' chat with her but, i stop myself cause Shmi look stress everytime. I don't want to disturb her. Is it me?
I don't know, someone please clarify.

I hope Shmi is alright...
We don't talk like always..

On the bighter side,
we got our drama syf results.
Though it's not the best, but i'm proud of them.
We did our best and you all were great.

WE GOT A SLIVER!!!!

Ok, i'm off. Need to start revising maths!!!

OUT!!

Mid-Year Exams Are Here!!!

2007-04-21T18:35:00.000+08:00

Mid year is next week and i have no idea why am i still blogging?
This would be the last post for now, as i'm going on a HIATUS, till mid-year is over.

Its been hectic this week. Sleeping at 2.30am and waking up after 3 hours. Just to finish up 6 boards for art. Sounds so familiar, don't ya think someone? This reminds me of Nikita. Memories, it doesn't kill does it? Though, we don't talk or even say HI, yes i do remember and miss her. As a friend of course. Memories...

I still yet have at least 3 boards to finish, PAPA HELP ME!!! But, i rather work on my own, just like last year. Hopefully.

Revision, i still have lots to do plus homework to finish. I tell ya, the school is crazy you know. Its driving everyone NUTS!!! Especially me. -stop whining IFFA-

Ok, this post is so random, well, taggies replies...

2Pooch: hey, thanks. don't worry aite, Fab5 will never be forgotten. You all make me realise what friendship really means, now tell me how could i forget you all then? Fab5 will always a pace in my heart, no matter what. Just give me sometime, cause i have a lot to catch up with my bitch, after a LONG time. see ya one monday aite?? *hugs&hugs*

2Charace: BITCH!!! yes, who cares if they think we are lesbians? hahaha, i'm touched with the testi you gave me the other day. oh yes, cam-whoring is a must, we shall make the papparazi chase us and we shall pose for the cameras all we want!!! Ain't it great??!! Both of us are such idiotic bitches!!! i don't mind you calling me QUEEN, cause i'm gonna call you..... actually i have no idea except for BITCH!!!! wahahahaha, oh please give me your blog add. *hugs,hugs&hugs*

Here are the overdue pictures...

Silva, Charace, Me & Firli.

The two makciks waving to each other. Like, WTH!!!

This was suppose to be a happy2 picture, do we look happy enough??

A solo picture of my BITCH!!!

I look skinny here, don't you think? Can i be that skinny, soon?

The bitch, being perasan to be emo and a pianist(did i spell wrongly)...

Me, being emo and happy...

One good thing about all my friends, they are so camera friendly!!!
CAM WHORERS!!!! (is there even such a word?)

Me again.

Last but not least...

The BITCH & the QUEEN!!!!

wahahahaha!!!
How cool is that, imagine people calling you Queen or Bitch? People, might thing we are mad people. Actually, i am.

Ok, people, i'm done here.

OUT!!!

P/S: have you tried listening to Ria89.7fm at 12am every weekdays? It's damn scary i tell you.!

WEareBACKasGALFRENS!

2007-04-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

Hey hey you you, i wanna be your girlfriend!!!

Don't get me wrong, i don't want to be anybody's girlfriend yet, what i mean is my friendship with Charace is back together. NO MORE COLD WAR!!!!
Charace, i wanna be your girlfriend!!!

After yesterday "confession time" which was actually english lesson, so Ms Siti i wanna thank you for bringing us back together. If it's not for english, we wouldn't even talk now.

She confessed, i confessed, Silva confessed and Firli confessed.

It felt so great after i know what they felt about me, i mean truly. No secrets.

She said that, i changed after being the Drama President and thought that i was really the
PERASAN.
Ok, i cannot deny it, everybody hated me when i got that post.
It was a bad year for me, not having friends to turn to and your drama friends not coming for drama just because they think i was fierce...

Well, what i can i say, it was stressful.
But, i went through it and here i am as crazy as always.
I can be really nonsense sometimes, just like what my previous post said.
Sometimes hysterical then after that as quiet/innocent as a cat.

Whatever it is, i am so glad we are back together.
No matter what happens now, we will never be apart.
No secrets between us.
And, we will cam-whore like nobody business!!!

I promise, i will be a better friend to you.
Charace, you know how much i still care/love for you as my idiotic bitch right?
I know you do.

Thanks, for making me your idiotic, annoying, irritaing, noisy and crazy bitch once again!!!
I LOVE US!!!

OUT!

New Blogskin.

2007-04-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

Oh, a new blogskin which i just fell in love with once i saw it.
Anway,a nother reason why i changed was because i found out my junior is using the same skin as me. The one which is 'MONSTER ATTACK'.
Plus i was getting bored of that too.

Ok, i'll update more on friday?
I have lots of pictures to upload.

OUT!

2007-04-17T20:17:00.000+08:00

LEO WOMAN

She will stand out of the crowd on the street. Leo woman normally tall or rather tall.
You will hardly see a short thick woman.
When she walks she walk like a queen, confident and does not look around, though as if there is no one around her.

She will dress in her own style not according to fashion.
She is confident of what she choose to wear.
Do not buy cheap clothes where they sell in dozen for her as a gift, she will hate it.
Also do not buy clothes that do not reflect her confident personality.
She likes unique and strange clothes and accessories.
Being different is what she loves.

If you want to know her, take times and be patient because she is selective about people she mingles with.
She's open minded, but yet she is not letting people get to close to her easily.
She likes sweet words and compliments,but not too much.

She smiles with anyone, but inside she thinks she is borne to be a leader.She likes to be in control because it is in her nature instinct.
She is a graceful woman , and she has a magnetic charisma, so expect tough competition.

She is a very proud person, so do not do anything to challenge her confident.
She can be mad and act like a hurricane, and later can be like aninnocent kitten, but do not fall for her O.K.
She remembers everything and likes to cherish her sweet memory, so if you find her old photo albums withher ex-boyfriend or love letters that will make you puke, take it easy.
She is keeping her sweet memory does not mean she still in love with the old fool, so you do not have to panic.

She will have many guys run after her, so if you have advantage of a good background family, or a famous last name, a successful career then it's a plus. She hates to be poor and she thinks love will not pay bills.

She is a sport type and love sports.

If you want to date her, prepare to spend big bugs, for your first dinner with her can not be a hot dog stand,but better be the best place in town.
She is a generous person, so do not be surprise if she give you a gift more expensive than what you gave her.

She likes extravaganza, no cheap gift, no cheap dinner please. Being poor or broke make her depress.
If you do not have lots of money, be creative and make your own gift for her.
It's unique quality and times spending making it for her is a big deal. You can think economical, but do not be cheap.

I totally agree about that, but not 100% ok.
So, what do you guys thinks?

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Anyway, drama syf was ok. They did great and yes, i'm proud of them.
But, i don't want to be credited here, i'm here to say that...
MY DEAR DRAMA JUNIORS, YOU DID GREAT!!!
I'm sure, we will strive the best.

See, i never think of myself always, i think of them too.
No matter how much they hate me.

Ok, i'm out!

2007-04-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

I find myself dumb.
Dumb because i still care for them yet, they never apperciate.
So, why am i bothered?

I was mere helping out and they said i am bossing them around?
Still don't want to step down from that cca?
Still feels that i conquer that cca?
I have the face to help out?

Hello, Hello!!!!
I wasn't even willing to help at the first place.
I was freaking being forced!!!!
And, do consider that i am missing my lesson for all of you???
Do you know that i am taking my o'levels and i have a coursework to finish by end of JUne?
Do you have any idea i am stress???

Please, stop judging people cause you don't know me yet.
You don't even know how mean i could be when i get really mad.
You want to see get really mad and be a witch, try me.
Then you'll know how crazy i am.

Doesn't mean i'm happy and smile at you all, i am not angry.
i have emotions too you know.

Oh wait, why am i ranting when they don't even care.
How ironic?
Anyway, i am only an SM, nobody cares.

So, why care.
That's it, i am gonna do my job tomorrow then leave that cca for good.
Oh, thank you so much for doing this to me.
Hating my best and most favourite cca for at least 4 years.
thank you, you did such a great job.

OUT!

2007-04-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

Hello people!!!
I'm tired, yet happy.
Cause i've understand my chemistry, finished my maths homework which nearly killed me, but i still have lots to do.

Drama practice was fun today. Tomorrow and monday would be the last day we'll be together, then we'll step down and concentrate on revisions and studies. Though it's good yet, i feel sad too. Imagine working each other for nearly a whole 6 months or more, how would you feel? Though i only joined, but i'm sad. However, i'm wishing my Sec.3 batch all the best and i have faith in all of you, including Jeya. Yes. You all can do it. We are a team, The Drama Team.
Make the seniors proud ya?!

Anyway, here are some pictures taken a few days ago.
The flirty scene.
The poses they had, while i was taking pictures.Yes, my juniors love cam-whoring, like ME!
I love this picture the best.
Let me hear you shout.."YT Drama RAWKS"
This was taken by Huiyun, while i was skating.Gosh, i look horrible.

And of course our dear Ms Zara. Pakai baju kurung pon nak naik skates.. Hahaha.
The crazy days. Tomorrow i'll try to take lots of picture of us and post it.I'm thinking to take a group photo.
Ok, i'm done.Oh, pictures are all taken for the sake of going crazy.There is no such stuffs as Bully and all that.YT Drama Club is never a place to be bullied.
Ok people, I'M OUT.Oh, WISH US LUCK THIS MONDAY.GO YT DRAMA GO, LETS STRIVE AND ACHIEVE OUR GOALS!

2007-04-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

I'm tired.

Can i just blog that. Well, i shall not say much bout school, it's the same old stuffs.

You know, i've been having feeling rather lonely these days.
I don't know why, is it cause i'm missing that person? I missing lots of people i tell ya.

Ms Melissa Chng
My Fiknatic Sistaz
My cousins and aunties
My friends, even though i spent 5 days with them
My beauty sleep
Taufik Batisah
That certain someone
YTSS Frens Musical '04

and list goes on.

What's wrong with me? Really, if i have the power to freeze time, i will.
Then, i'll used it to meet everyone i know and spend time with them.
Yes, that's how much i miss all of them.

But, i am having lots of fun during drama.
We go crazy and have fun though we are really tired.
I really hope we could make it this Monday.

Our SYF is this Monday, and yes i am really worried but i have faith in them.
I know they could do it, it's just that they need to get to the character.
I'm just so lucky im not acting.

Oh, speaking of which there is drama tomorrow.
Ok, will stop here i guess. Need to get back to revising.
I'll leave you with this lyrics. Listen to the song and read this lyrics.

Exceptional - Jojo

Mmmm

You're beautiful but you don't know
Can't see what's there inside your soul
Always feelin like you're not good enough
You wish you could be someone else
Sometimes you just can't see yourself
But I can see just who you are, who you are

You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional(Yeah)

You never you think you measure up
Never smart or cool, or pretty enough
Always feeling different from all the rest, oh
You feel so out of place, you think you don't fit in
I think you're perfect in the skin you're in
You're just perfect just how you are, just how you are, yeah

[chorus]
You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional

If you could see the one
I see when I see you
You'd know how lucky you are to be yo
uI see through into you
And you are

You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
(You are)You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional

2007-04-08T10:15:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!
I'm going crazy over every homework and revisons i'm doing now!!!
So freaking stressed about maths, poa and everything else, oh not forget drama syf.
When is this gonna end???

Mid-year is less than two week, oh shalini never ever remind me.
Drama syf is freaking NEXT WEEK!!! and mind you, there are not even focus-ed yet, how are gonna keep our standard??? Gosh, if i knew it was going to be that bad, i should have never gone, instead i should hang out with the fiknatics yesterday. Damn, i'm PISS-ED!!

Really, i don't even know why or how i got involved in drama while the rest of the sec.5s are busy preparing for their mid-year. Seriously, tell me people!!!
How i wish i could just dropped dead now, can?

Oh, not to forget art. That's another one!!!
ARGH!!!!
DROP LA DROP!!!!!

I'm talking nuts, i know so please bear with me but if you don't want, then don't read la!!!!
Damn, life is crazy.

Anyway, i'm glad aziq had lots of fun yesterday, sorry i couldn't make it.
Reading all their entries, is making me so JEALOUS!!!

Ok, i'm done.
I'm OUT, to continue with this freaking-idiotic-difficult-bloody maths paper!

2007-04-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

School had Speech Day today.
Well, Happy 21st Birthday YTSS....

Today, all N'level and O'level who did YTSS proud was given recognition. Indeed i was proud and happy to be one of them. But, to wait for the VIPs was another. It was really boring i tell ya.
Nevertheless, we entertained each other by taking pictures, smsing, telling lame jokes and even sleeping.

Ok, i'll just post up the pictures.

The former principal and the JC i want to get in to.

People were bored, so they started doing the normal stuffs...

I got bored and started cam-whoring.
Me with Praveena.

Shmi and I.

After the prize presentation thingy. I was damn happy. Cause i got those...

The upclose plaque.
MY NAME IS THERE!!! -jumps-

The certificate. I'm so honoured!!

Finally a $30 voucher from POPULAR BOOKSTORE.

That's about it, but after hearing a motivational speech by the former P and students.
It inspired me to do well in my studies and i promise myself that i'll study even harder to get to SJC. Plus, to get another plaque. Yes, this is MY DREAM!

Tomorrow is 6 April '07.
No school and it's someone's special day. So,

Have a wonderful and crazy day during your birthday. Oh, wishing you all the best for the O'Levels.
Take Care!
Ok, it's late and i gotta sleep.
I'm OUT!!!

2007-03-31T12:59:00.001+08:00

This post will be full of pictures, somehow i have nothing interesting to blog about but pictures does. First up will be Shmi's Mini Birthday Bash, held in Shalini's house.

The main purpose to Shalini's house was to finish up our physics project.
Decided to finish it up first then bash-ED Shmi.

Since we got too bored with the project, we cam-whored.Only, Shmi was too engrossed in the project.
After the project, we head on with our plan.Unfortunately, Shmi ran which actually she can't!!! So, we gave up and waited for her at Shalini's house. But, Shmi was kind enough to let us WET her.
When we finished, we gave her the prezzies.

The wet shorts of hers.

Shmi, giving a summary of what had happen.

The card which I made.ESPECIALLY FOR HER.Oh, she got a bag too.Glad you like it girl!!!
Between, after Shmi's birthday is mine. Which is in 5 months time.I heard, Shalini and Charace had planned it already.To make things worse, my birthday is on a Wednesday, i'm going to die!!In THEIR HANDS!!!
A few weeks ago, my younger sister had a performance.A dance.It was amazing, ok.PICTURES!!!

After the show, with the family.
Duni and I. Sisters Forever!!!
Kate Sisters Forever, mesti la ade chance nak try kan??!!!Cool eh??!!!
Since the last few weeks, i've been busy with SYF. Yes, Drama syf even during this time!!!No, i'm not happy at all.It takes up almost all my revision time.I hate it, but i just can't help to laugh at all my juniors having lots of fun.They are the best.Somehow, coming for rehearsals now is such a happy occasions.So BLANGLA-ISH!!!
Well, here is one example when we go really stress.My junior, MIZ, turned to a WHITE NERD GORILLA after a whole day of rehearsal.
Today, while cleaning up my messy cupboard, i found some interesting pictures.Old pictures.I kept laughing while going through it.Here are some of the photos.
My elder brother.Look at how chubby he was last time??!!!Now, he look so different, in fact he's very SKINNY NOW!!!Don't you think so??
This is Duni, skinny isn't it.Now, look what happen to her.So CHUBBY!!!
This is Nusya.Look how different she is now...Told ya.
I think you can guess who is this.Yes, it's me.You kow how i look, you decide what is the difference.One think for sure, i've always been wearing specs.
The 3 sisters with our grandmother.
US.
I have a very wierd family but, a loving one.Between, my yonger brother wasn't born yet that time.Ok, this had been a VERY long post.
I'm OUT, need to finish up my homeworks and revisions.

2007-03-26T19:35:00.000+08:00

-Let's Turn Back To 24 March '07-

That day, we celebrated Shmi's birthday and it was indeed a memorable one for all of us. Especially Shmi, we threw water at her and got her all wet, although it's only her shorts.
Pictures, will be uploaded soon. Sorry Pooch, my camera is with my dad.

-Ok, let's come back to the present.-
Today was YiLing's birthday and WE(Charace, Sliva, Fazlin, Firli & I) celebrated her birthday by giving her a mini birthday bash!!! Oh how cool is that!!!
Yes, we threw water at her, using our water bottles. The cake, was the most creative one that we ever invented. As usual, i'm running out of time, pictures will do the talking.
The cake, with POCKY as candles...
The birthday girl.

The Lunatics!!!

Pictures of the day...

So, i'm OUT.Happy Birthday YiLinG.

2007-03-23T22:37:00.000+08:00

This week of school was simply crazy and frustrating. Isn't that how school is suppose to be? Maybe for me i guess, no make it us... I hope she still hasn't found out anything that we have planned. Anyway, english test today was simply HORRIBLE!!! Gosh, we are failing it consistently!!! Imgine that, right edmund??!!!

Anyway, i don't have the mood to blog, so here are some photos...

TB.net fliming?? - Sunday.

Ultraman ye Kak aNNa'??!!!
FIRE SIKIT AH!!!!

All the Kakaks look pretty, the Adiks look Cute!!!

I think the pictures says it all la...

Look at my eyes, it's closed. And Kak aNNa' is squeezing in...
This is so much better, of course one person is missing...

The adik-adiks turn!!!

I love all three pictures...So, crazy like!!!

Cute eh kakak-kakak aku nie....
Of course, an outing without a group photo will be incomplete...

Yup, it was a good.A good end to the holidays also.
And, taken by Kak sHad, edited by me. More pictures, these was taken during Drama time, when i was bored to death.

01.Setting up the props.02.Chrstine junior getting so stress out about lights..03.Our instructor, Ms Joel...04.Ms Zara our carzy and funny teacher...
Oh, on a brighter note, i can't wait for tomorrow!!!However, on a darker side, i ahve to be in school by 7.45am. Damn it!!
Taggies replies
destiny: hey, nice meeting you too. was really surprised when you called my name. Ya, i'm takinga break from forum, will be back after O's. and yes, i'll take it easy though its not!
Yiling: thanks for sharing, really interesting and nice...
Aziqa: thats how i'm feeling now. can't bear to let her off but, what to do. hold on, is waht i can do. take care darl!!!
Ok, i'm out!!!!

2007-03-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

BREAKING NEWS!!!

Shalini is migrating, to PERTH!!!!!!
This is so unfair!!! Unfair cause she's going to leave me here in singapore missing her so dearly!!!
Why must this happen when i am loving you so much and i can't bear to leave you??!!!
You know how terrible it feels??!!!
Gosh, i wish i would just stop her but who am i?

Anyway, i think i should not exaggerate that much, between, she would feel so much more miserable cause she's gonna leave behind lots of people/friends. Especially ME!!!
I'm gonna miss her lots, when the time comes, of course!

Babe, you know how much you mean to me right?
Just don't forget me, and i promise you, i'll make your last year in singapore the best year you never imagine!!!
For now, let's spend time together and do lots of stuffs one of them, STUDYING!!!
*big smile*

Besides that, saturday would be a torture day for someone, that is, if she reads my blog but i doubt so. Just watch out ok? Shalini, ayu and praveena lets get ready for the BIG day!!!

As for my studies, i'm doing my best. I've started sleeping late to do my own notes and revising in the morning. As for art, i've put aside friday and saturdays nights for it.

Told ya it's a hectic week.

Oh, SYF trainings is till 9pm on friday. Madrasah how?

Ok i'm out!!!

2007-03-19T20:23:00.000+08:00

I cried again today.

When FT spoke to me about my stress level. I'm glad she is very concerned and i am happy to have her as my FT. Trust me, she's a good teacher/friend to speak to.

FT: wad are you stress about?

ME: hmmm, school (i was choking by now)

FT: You know, expections doesn't come from the school or teachers, but also yourself. i think you are aware of this?

Me: (nod my head)

FT: Iffa, life isn't about studies and good marks only, its also about enjoying it. And, i think you are stress cause of your own expections right? Plus, we, as teachers never intended to give unnecessary stress to the students, esp. YOU!!!

Me: (crying)

FT: And, please if you are stress, please let me know. I can't predict you know, all i can see from your face is laughter and smiles. You are well-known of being a positive, bubbly & happy person. So, nobody could ever find out whether you are stress or not.

Me: (sobbing)

FT: you want tissue, you don't look fantastic you know...

I mean, how nice could teachers be. Really, i'm glad she spoke to me.
Oh, between i had a fun time yesterday with sistaz and i watched HanaKimi just now.
I can agree that WuZun is cute.

Ok, i'm OUT!!!!

2007-03-17T14:52:00.000+08:00

Without knowing, it's going to be the end of March holidays and soon, mid-year would be coming. (Read:4 more weeks) It's going to a be a HECTIC week, i know.

With SYF trainings going on, self-study, art and revisions, i think i'll drop dead right now, but no, i won't. I'm not gonna give up and but i'll stand and hold on. I keep telling myself, i'm gonna make it, like how i did for N'Levels. I will make it, and i won't give up even though the road will get tough. That is how life suppose to be, nothing comes easy and so, i just have to go through it.

The P, told my dad that i'm easily statisfied with my results, but NO, he is WRONG!!! Do he even know what am i going through, what am i feeling??!! Go to hell la with his comments.
Seriously, why must he be bothered, i know he is the P, but please, just leave me alone and i promised i'll do well. Like how i did during N'Levels. You just simply IS a FISH.

I'm tired, tired of everything. I'm even thinking of not going tomorrow, the sistaz outing. But i know, a deal is a deal. I must make it. Just so, i won't upset them, maybe they will lighten up my week.

Oh between,
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY AFFAN(READ:BAMBOO)!!!!

Ok, i'm OUT!!!

2007-03-17T01:27:00.000+08:00

I'm back.

Just to rant my feelings out, but it will be tomorrow.

OUT!!!

Beyond ClassRoom Day

2007-03-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

The Sec.5s went to Sentosa today and had a competiton of building the sand castle. And ya, after 2hrs of working and 'playing' with the sand, my group won. We were among the 3 groups. But who cares, WE WON!!!

Well, pictures will take over for now...

That's about it i guess, but i gain something. Bonding with your friends and having teamwork would the impossible into possible.Oh, Shmi, Shalini, Praveena & I spent our time together at the beach and we played a game. The which inspire me to be a better friend to them.Thanks guys. It was simply a great day.
My mother called the year master, and i am relieved that the YM understands me. Whatever she told my mum, my mum told me. And, it left me crying o know that lots of people do care about me.Thank you, thank you so much.
I have planned my holiday properly and my aim is to finished up my revicion for term one & two by the end of the holidays. I am going to do it!!! So, i'm off!!!
And, this is how i look like now,red cheeks, cause of SUNBURNT!!!!
Even my religious teacher called me a SUN!!!Not GOOD!!!I'll look horrible!!
Ok, I'm OUT!!!
P/S: Thanks for the great day guys!!!

Going On Hiatus.

2007-03-08T15:31:00.000+08:00

I broke down last Monday, in front of my malay teacher, Cikgu Ruziana. I was just too stressed and scared. For what you ask, well, if you know me well, you should know.

I just could not take anymore, with the stress that i'm handling and the expectations that school, teachers and parents are putting on me. I just could not take it. Plus, my term test results did not show it. You know? I just feel so sucky... I told cikgu everything and i'm glad she was there to calm me. I could not do it in front of my friends, it just seem not right. I'm just so afraid that i'm passing my problems to them. Nor did i spoke to my parents first. Somehow, i just felt Cikgu Ruziana was the best person for me to talk to.

When i thought that this crying would will be over, i broke down AGAIN, on Tuesday. Right after i got my Comb. Humans results. I called my mum and cried. I'm glad and fortunate she understood my situation, what more of a mother would i want. Ma, I love you!!! And, Fazlin was there, accidentally. Somehow, i just spoke my heart out to her and i felt better. Thanks Fazzy.

Where we they when i needed them, but the one who turned up was the person i never thought would turn up.

It brings me back the memories when i was in sec.1

Anyway, thanks Shmi and Shalini for listening to my shouts/screams and tolerating with my temper.
Also, to Fazzy and Cikgu, for being there for me.

No-Uniform Day was ok. Nothing special, unlike the past few years. Also because of my mood, i was too lazy to snap pictures of the teachers and friends.

Yesterday, Community Heart Day, was simply tiring. Not gonna elaborate.

Today, presentation of our CHD, was simply GREAT. I managed to let go the saddness and enjoy a lil bit of craziness. I represented my class and i was shivering, in front of the whole Sec.4&5s. The audience could see from my hand and hear from my voice. However, year master said i did fine and even though i shivered, i managed to cover it. Congrats to 5n1 for winning the 'competition'.

I going on HIATUS soon, after tomorrow which would be my last post about the 'BEYOND CLASS ROOM DAY'.

I've decided to stop blogging for now, and concentrate on my subjects. Would be back by the end of mid-year examinations?

Ok, to end this post, watch this video, I'M OUT!!!

Too Cute - The best bloopers are a click away

P/S: Happy International Womes' Day Sistaz, friends and readers!!!

Tiring Day

2007-03-03T04:46:00.000+08:00

It's 4.50am and i can't sleep, so let's blog!

Yesterday, was GREAT even though it was tiring but i enjoyed myself a lot.
It did not rained as i expected, actually we, but cross country run wasn't that long either so, we had lots of fun RUNNING. I managed to run and through the run, i released lots of tension.

After the run, while waiting for the prize presentation, we were bored, so we cam-whored!!!(oh, that ryhmes...)

The sky...

Look at my red cheeks!!!

The tired Shalini..

HuiYun & I

YuanYu & I

The Idiots...

US!!

After the run, my shoe got 'fractured'-_-"

Camera shy?

Nah, don't think so..

I look like a small child here...

I LOVE US!!!

The H4 of the class...

My another crazy bunch of friends...

Finally, my really crazy, idiotics and best of friends... You all are the best!!!
After the run, we went for a seminar at Suntec City. On our own, which made lots of the classmates too lazy to turn up, so only a few turned up.
The seminar was kinda boring, but we still gained something from there.We cam-whored..
The one who was paying attention,my monitor, the idiot!!! =p
The one sleeping...BAMBOO!!
The couples...LeeTeng & Edmund
Us minus one... Where did Shmi go??!!!

Me...
Ok, i'm done but still not sleepy. So, let's blog hopping!!!wahahaha!!!

Oh, before i forgot, it's Tiq's birthday soHAPPY SWEET 16th BIRTHDAY DEAR!!!!
It's like as if i don't have CIP like that...Morning babes!!!
I'm out!!!
FYI: Those who want's the pictures, i'll try to post it at my multiply, so don't ripped it of from my BLOG ok??!!! Or, just PM me if you want. And, Taufik blogged!! Shalini, go check it out!!!

It's OVER!!!!

2007-03-01T20:42:00.000+08:00

Its over, its over!!! -dances-

Finally, the term tests are over but i'm not prepared for the results, i have this feeling i won't do well. Serious! Let's just say, i'm freaking worried!!
Whatever, i'll just prepare myself for the worse.

Anyway, today after Art lesson, accidentally bumped into my principal.
He asked me all those stuffs whether i'm done with CIP, studies and whatever stuffs...
Guess what, he said about he hates "my laid-back attitude".
What is he trying to say, "GET SERIOUS & BE STRESS"?
Oh, please don't sir, i'm already very stress with all the stuffs going on and i'm just getting used to it. Please, don't make me hate school cause, i've always loved school...

I really am glad and honoured i was short-listed but please, don't stress me out.
I'm doing my best to improve my weak subjects and you will never imagine what i had done.
So please, just let me do my own stuff and i'll go with the flow.

I know he will never read it, but whatever, i'm just venting it out...

Ok, let's talk about 'GOOD' stuffs now.

Currently, there are 2 new PE teachers in school. aren't i right charace, shalini, yiling?? =p
Ok, i must admit they are HOT!!! I must so totally agree but they are not even teachers yet, they are just trainee teachers... They will only teach next year.
Anyway, because of these two teachers(READ: both males, one chinese another malay), girls have been melting because of their HOTTNESS and yes, i did too...
Who won't, FYI; the malay one looks like Mr Soulman. Siape tak ciar??!!!
Wakakaka!!!
So ya, we, students are falling for the teachers. Ish, ish.. not a good sign!!!

"How can we fall for a teacher, it'll affect our studies!!"

"No la!!! It won't, it will actually encouraged us to come school..."

"Ah, ya la but come school not to study but find the teacher right??!!!"

Wahahahaha, and know what, the whole class thinks i'm ALL OVER the malay teacher...
Cannot la, mine is Mr Soulman kan???!!! Or not Romeo, right Shalini?? =)
Oh, school is getting interesting, irritating and fun at the same time...

Looking forward for: No-Uniform Day, Community Heart Day and lots more...
Oh, but i'm dragging myself to run for Cross Country tomorrow...
So, please rain, HEAVILY tomorrow!!!

Ok, i'm done and happy cause my Shalini a.k.a S2 has a new BLOG!!!!

I'm OUT!!!! P/S: I'm missing the sistaz!!!! I want to go crazy like before but WHEN??!!!

YES!!! The Fiknatics Did It AGAIN!!!

2007-02-25T16:03:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah... We did it, the FIKNATICS did it!!!*dancing & jumping*
Cause,

Credits to: taufik-batisah.net

Mr soulman won!!!

We did it again Fiknatics, plus, the amount i spent voting also did not went to waste!!
I lost count on how much i voted for him...Hmm.

He was simply HOT la yesterday, my sis and i was melting...
Oh, i saw the fiknatics on TV!!! Sungguh gembira anda semue ye??!! =p
And like Kak aNNa' said in her post, this year pesta perdana was boring
except
when Suhaimi was hosting and Taufik was performing..

Well, let's just congratulate the Fiknatics again and Mr Soulman..

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I was going through my last year notes when this paper,A Letter To An UNKNOWN ATHLETE
i read through it and it inspired me, actually it made me realised that no matter how tough the route of studies, i just have to continue with it cause education is what gets us going.
Here's the 'letter'
Dear_________,
I'm a big believer in the benefits of athletics. However, after visiting with you, I am shocked to learn about your attitude toward school.
You say you're banking on a pro career and don't feel the need for education. I say your chances of making the pros are about as good as my dad's chances of growing his hair back. "A youngster gambling his furure on a pro-contract is a like a worker buying a single Irish Sweepstakes ticket and then quitting his job in anticipation of his winnings." Senator Bill Bradley, a former NBA star, said that. Studies have shown that only one out of every one hundred high school athletes will play Division I college sports, and then the chances of a high school player making the pros are one in ten thousand.
Of hundreds of college athelets I played with in college who hoped to make the pros, I can think of only a hnadful who made it. On the other hand, I can think of many who wasted their minds in the name of sports, and who were then thrown into the workforce without a chance or a clue.
I'll never forget the time one of my teammates delivered a phsyche-up speech to our team the night before we played a rival university. Having neglected his education and having never learned to express himself, all he could do was uncork a barrgae of vulgarities that could have cut down a forest. In a matter of 3 minutes it seemed he managed to use the f-word as a noun, a verb, an adjective, a pronoun, a conjunction, and a dangling participle. I left that meeting thinking,"Man, get a brain!"
Open your eyes! Your education is the key to unlocking your future.You say you don't like school. I say, what does that have to do with it? Does anything good in life come easy? Do you like working out everyday? Does medical student enjoy studying for four years? Since when does liking something determine whether or not you should do it?Sometimes you just have to discipline yourself to do things you don't feel like doing because of what you hope to gain from it.
You say that you try to sit down and study but can't because your mind begins to wander. I say that unless you learn to control your mind you won't amount to squat. The discipline of the mind is a much higher form of discipline than that of the body. It is one thing to train your body to perforn at peak levels; it is quite another to control your thoughts, to concentrate for sustained periods, to synthesize, and to think creatively and analythically.
At times saying "I try" is a lame excuse. Imagine how ubsurd it would sound if i asked you, "Are you going to eat today or are you going to try to eat?" Just discipline yourself to do the thing.
You say you can get by without studying, that by cramming and finding ways to beat the system you can pull out passing grades. I say you reap what you sow. Can the farmer cram? Can he forget to plant his crops in the spring, loaf all summer long and then work real ahrd in the fall to bring in the harvest? Can you improve the strength, speed, and endurance of your mind, you must work it out. There are no shortcuts. Don't expect to show up one day in the land of Oz and have the Wizard hand you a brain.
Imagine five sets of hands. One set belongs to a concert pianist who can enthrall audieneces with beautiful renditions of teh classics. Another to an eye surgeon who can restore lost vision through microsopic surgery. Another to a professional golfer who consistently makes the clutch shot under pressure. Another to a blind man who can read tiny raised markings on a page incredible speeds. Another to an artist who can carve beautiful sculptures that insipre the soul. On the surface, the hands may all look the same, but behind each set are years and years of sacrifice, discipline and preserverance. These people paid a price! Do you think thay crammed? Did they beat the system?
One of my biggest regrets in life that is that instead of reading 100 novels during high school, I read a bunch of Cliff Notes summaries. In contrast, I have a friend who during his ten years must have read hundreds of books. His brain can bench-press over four hundred pounds. Why, I would cut off one...no, two toes for such a brain.
If you don't pay the price you will earn a degree but fail to get an education. And there is a big difference between the two. Some of our best thinkers were degreeless, self-educated men and women. How did they do it? They read.It's only the single greatest habit you could ever develop. Yet few do it regularly. And many stop reading and learning when they finish school. That spells brain atrophy. Education must be a lifelong pursuit. teh person who doesnt't read is no better off than the person who can't.
You say you live for today and don't think about the future. I say the major difference between you and your dog is that you can think about tomorrow and he can't. Don't make long-term career decisions based on short-term emotions, like the student who chooses his/her major based on the shortest registration line. Develop a future orientation; make decisions with the end in mind. To have a good job tomorrow, you must do your homeowrk tonight.
The Proverb sums up the whole matter: "Take fast hold of instruction; let her not go: keep her; for she is thy life."
You seem to be saying you don't need a brain. I say, get one!
I hope I haven't offeneded you. I mean well. It's just that ten years from now, I don't want you to find yourself singing as our friend the Scarecrow:
I would not be just nothin',My head all full of stuffin',......If I only had a brain.
Extracted from: The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teensby Sean Covey.
What do you think?
OUT!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!

2007-02-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

I might be outdated, but who cares i'm just so happy for Mr Soulman!!!!
Why?
Cause of this...

Read it properly and you'll find

that.

Oh my, MR SOULMAN, you did it AGAIN!!!! His song made it to Malaysia, and now, it's one of the top 30 popular songs!!!
Damn, i'm proud of you!!!

And, it's getting better each day...
Check it out at the forum.

Now, left with the Pesta Perdana. Will he win??!!!!
Oh, it's so nerve-wrecking...
Anyway, sistaz who are going, take a solo picture cause i wanna see what you all wore ok??
Have fun ya... =]

School today was kinda fun, and art is getting on my nerves again!!!
Oh, Shalini and I created a secret name for each of us.
One for her, Shmitha and I.

Oh, i'm so loving my friends each and everyday!!!

Let's stay crazy.....
Don't ever leave me guys!!!! Wakakakaka!!!

Taggies replies!!!

To iLa: Oh gal, i miss you too!!! A lot!!! Hope you get where you dream to go alright and never forget this crazy friend of yours!!! =]

To YiLing: You saw him??!!! When?? Where?? Hahaha, i so freaking miss his LAME jokes...
LOL!!! Thanks for the info.

To aNati: Hahahaha, ya, she's been reminding me to vote and vote and vote...
Habis bill increase nanti!!! Hahaha, take care gal!!! =)

Ok, till then people,
I'M OUT!!!

The funniest 'joke' ever...

2007-02-19T17:16:00.000+08:00

Just chatted with Kak aNNa`.
She told me that 'joke', wiat is it even a joke or not?
Want to know, ask her yourself ok sisataz?

I stil couldn't believe it.
I was laughing at the same time crying.
Like, don't have common sense la!!!

Ok whatever, reda kan sudah la...
Anyway, i've been blogging quite a lot this week.
Maybe cause of the holidays and to di-stress myself.

Just came back from self-study with Shalini, we had lots of fun...
Plus i finished my homeworks, quite...

Was going through some of my emails, and i saw this picture...

You know how i love cute babies right??
So cute la... =]

And this email...

Difference between Friends and Bestfriend

Friend: calls your parents by mr. and mrs.
Best friend: calls your parents dad & mom or tito & tita.

Friend: has never seen you cry
Best friend: has always has the best shoulder to cry on

Friend: never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best friend: opens the fridge & makes him/herself at home

Friend: asks you to write down your number.
Best friend: they ask you for their number(cuz they can't remember it)

Friend: borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
Best friend: has a closet full of your stuff

Friend: only knows a few things about you
Best friend: could write a biography on your life story

Friend: will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
Best friend: will always go with you

Friend: will ask where you've been
Best Friend: will say I MISS YOU & goes on being your friend ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Written with a pen

Sealed with a kiss

If you are my friend,

Please answer this:
Are we friends or are we not?

You told me once, but I forgot.

So tell me now and tell me true,

So I can say, I am here for you.

Of all the friends I've ever met,

You're the ones I won't forget.

And if I die before you do,

I'll go to Heaven

And wait for you.
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How sweet huh?
Anyway, i'm typing this cause i miss all my friends and my Fiknatic Sistaz.

All of you guys, rock my socks ok???
Don't ever stop!!!

Oh, fyi: My mum haven't stopped voting for Taufik, and pestering me to vote for him...
Now who is crazy of Taufik? =]
Oh, i LOVE HER LOTS!!! Ok, OUT!!!!

If not happy, say it straight at the face LA!!!

2007-02-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

What would you feel if you saw your name being criticise in a blog, or maybe it wasn't your name, it was your position in class...

Eg, 'my monitress sucks' what would you feel?

I don't know who is in the wrong, if you think its me, fine!
But don't put it in your blog, even though it's yours, it's still public.
Everyone can see it, including ME!!!

Why don't i put your name in my blog and criticise you, anyway, i have lots to say too...
But, did i do that? NO!!!
Why, cause i respect you as a friend and my classmate of nearly 3 years.
If i can, why can't you?

If it's only you criticising me, i might be ok, but your friend is also doing the same too.
Have you ever felt the pain?
No? Ya, no...

No words can describe your character.
Maybe one word, self-centered. Yes, that's it!

If you are reading this, or maybe Huiyun, i'm gonna say
I'm sorry, i'm here to rant my anger.

I said, im sorry if you are angry or hurt after reading this entry.
Ok, no hard feelings.

Kau ingat muke kau lawa sangat ke pe? Nak criticise orang macam tu, kau ingat kau mak aku??!!! @!&&&&&******$%@!*&^^$#q^e^#%@%e*%kjgui^%@%%&*^&*^*(
Eh, boleh blah la eh!!! Kau tu, perasan!!! Dah la irritating, menyampah tau aku!!!
Muke kau tu, macam sampah, aku tengok pon nak muntah!!!
Macam mane si Helmi to minat kat kau ah? Kau pakai ape, bomoh ke pe???
ARGH!!!! Kalau kau berambus, lagik bagus tau!!!!
YOU ARE SUCH AN IDIOT!!!!!
DON'T YOU THINK YOU'RE TOO MUCH??!!!!

That paragaph was changed to another font, so that no one would understand.
If you do, just keep it to yourself.

I'm OUT!!
I wonder why do someone exists??

Happy, happy, happy...

2007-02-16T18:04:00.000+08:00

I'm done!!!!
Done with writing the essay of 'The Greatest Influence In My Life'

What it's for, guess?

I somehow felt like blogging so here goes...

Today Chinese New Year Celebration in school is boring.
One of the reason, Shanini wasn't there with me. Nobody to go crazy with and Shmitha was busy with council. Why? Why? Why? hahahaha!!!
Get well soon ok, i mish you many many!!!!

Anyway, i heard Irving (a irritating friend of mine) got knocked down by a car yesterday.
Gosh, what the hell happened?
Anway, lots of people were REALLY happy. Cause, lots of people hate him, including me.
Ok stop it Iffa!
I'll pry for him to get well soon, and hope he learnt his lessons.

After school head to North View primary, purpose was to fetch my siblings but decided to have a tour around the school. It's been a long time since i've went to that school of mine, somehow, i miss the old days. Can i rewind time? So that i could at least cherish my fellow friends...

Watched thier concert, i was yawning...hmmm.

Anyway, it's gonna be a loooooong holiday. Excited? Happy?
Kinda, but, i'm forcing myself to study. Argh, term test is coming!!!

So Shanini, meet ya tomorrow ok? Can't wait!!!!
I love thsi picture, Shanini looked so flirty... =]
I just love my hair here... *winks*
I miss them.....It's been quite a long time right?One fine day, i guess...
Ms Loh, I miss you!!!!Without you in drama is NO FUN!!!
I'm even missing him!!!I even forgot his name..He's serving his army i guess...I miss the time, when i get to disturb him!!!
Oh, i've finished Romeo Vs Juliet, all 5 books.Romoe is so handsome, romantic and crazy!!!! If only i would have him, but dream on Iffa, he's A BOOK CHARACTER!!!
An extract from Romeo VS Juliet.(READ:words will be in malay, can't change it or it won't be nice)
Romoe: Kau kena pulangkan ape yang kau dah ambl Jail...
Jelita(Juliet): Eh!! Aku dah banyak kali dengar benda ni. Ape yang aku dah ambil, cakap cakap!!
Romeo: You have taken my heart, when the first time i saw you.You have taken my soul and life since i've known you.You have also taken all my sights because no matter where i see, i only see you Jail... Only you...
Oh, so romantic!!! Cair aku!!! (Read: melts)
Isn't there Romeo VS Juliet 6, i want to read thier happy ending, even though i know they will marry.
I'm so in love with Romeo!!! The book character tau!!!
And yes, with some reading, i get to release my stress a lil!!! Now, what am i suppose to read?
OUT!!!

A very long entry with pictures...

2007-02-15T19:45:00.000+08:00

It's been a hectic week.
English term test, homeworks, art, art and more art!!!

Anyway, i've been thinking a lot.
Why must i complain so much, if i have expected all this coming right?

It's my last year and it's O'Levels, of course it's tough and everybody in class is feeling the stress.
So, why must i complain?
Well, i'll just go with the flow PLUS hardwork and revision.

Anyway, let's turn back to last weekend.

Saturday.
Went to study and take pictures for art, with Shalini.
It was FREAKING FUN i tell ya!!!

And yes, we did study and finished up what we had to do.
Well, the pictures will do the talking...

Me, getting ready to meet Shalini...

The 2 crazy friends, walking around Yishun....

A candid shot. Oh, i so LOVE this picture!!!

This is my candid shot. Cool huh?

Don't you agree my dear Shanini? HAHAHA!!! =p

The very happy Shalini...

Lastly, the happy me!!!

There are more, but it's in my camera, too lazy to upload here.
Another time alright?

Sunday, family day!!!

Where did we head to...

It was AWESOME.
Ok, pictures, SPEAK!!!

The beautiful sky..

The oh-so KAPO family of mine...
what are they seeing?

Cute huh?

The siblings...

My dad and lil bro.
same je perangai gan papa!!!
(the character same!!)

Do we look the same?

Now?

Ok till then. And, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR,in advance...

I'm FREAKING STRESS!!!!

2007-02-10T12:32:00.000+08:00

I hate it when everyone have high hopes for me.
I hate it when people wants me to do my very best.
I hate it when people say i can make the school proud.
I hate it when people wants me to DO what i DON'T want to DO.

Yes, i am in a very angry mood!!!!

Don't even ask about my malay results!!! Like i said previously, i wont; retake but it looks like i HAVE to retake.

Why?

Cause, THEY want me to change my attitude, attitude that makes i feel satistfied of what i get.

Seriously, i don't get it. Why are you putting such high hopes on me, just because you want the school to be good in everyone's eyes?

Why me?

Why not Edmund?

ARGH!!!! Damn, the school is KILLING ME!!!!

I'm feeling very regretful now, for all the things i've done or get like:

1. To get good grades for my N'Levels
2. To be so NICE to the teachers.
3. To have parents which is involved in the school PSG.
(that doesn't mean i hate them ok?)
4. To get nominated for LKY award.
5. To be so disciplined in school.
6. To be active in Drama, and be the president.

And the list goes on.

If only i could just scream at the teachers and principal.

I just want a happy year ahead of me, but what i get?
A very stressful year, even though i was already expecting it coming but this is too much!!!

I bet none of you all know what i am talking right now, sorry, i'm just venting my anger!!!!

-take a DEEEEEEP breath, and let it go-

Ok, i shall explain.

My teachers want me to retake my malay O,
because they think i have the potential to do better.
Plus, they are thinking of nominating me for the LKY award.
Just because my studies is stable for the past 5 years, which IS NOT TRUE!!!!
And, i have been really good in CCA and i have no disciplinary problems before.

So, it other words, they want me to retake my malay O even though i have been repeating i don't want to.

Can't they see why i don't want to retake?
Cause, i'm stress with all my other subjects!!!

I have ART to finish by June, POA to revise on, CHEM&PHY to revise and memorise on.
Not forgetting ENGLISH to practice on. Oh, and COMB. HUMANS.

I just want a subject lesser, i want to forget about malay and move on with other subjects.
damn!!!

So what's my decision after all the thinking yesterday?
I am going to RETAKE my malay and show them that i do not have the attitude of easily statisfied and what nonsense!!!!

And, at the same time, i am gonna make sure i do my VERY best and get an A1.

Plus, i want to improve my grades for all my subjects, and make a study plan.
I must be serious from now on, no more playing a fool!!!
I had my fun for the past 4years, this time it's my final year and i'm gonna have all the stress which i hope i could handle it.

ARE YOU HAPPY NOW, TEACHERS???!!!!

It's a long entry, i'm gonna stop.

OUT!!!!

Lovin' It or Ain't I Loving' It?

2007-02-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

It was a tough day today, but a lil while of smiles cause Ms Kwa didn't come!!! Yayness!!!

Ok, will go back to the past for a lil while.

Saturday-3 Feb'07

Voluntary work @ Geylang Baharu,
Operations Homework, Habitat for Humanity

This was a VERY tiring job!!!! Plus fun!!!!

7 of us was in-charge of cleaning a malay male house, which is nearly to 80 years old.
His house was graded 8/10 for cleaniness, which means, his house was DIRTY.
To add a lil icing on the cake, his house has BED BUGS!!!!

URGH, disgusting!!!

I shall not elaborate on how we cleaned and stuffs just a few gruesome and interesting stuffs that ya all might want to know.
Could not blame him for having a dirty house, he is handicapped.

I nearly vomitted when i saw his vomits in the mugs. eeeewwww!!!
His bed, sofa, books and carpet was FULL of BED BUGS!!!! -hair standing-
I had lots of fun with the gang and Edmund.
Edmund and I was the leader/c0-leader, plus we are the youngest as to compared to the rest.

It was an experience that I cannot forget.
We made-over his home and yes, he LOVED it!!!! sorry, forgot to take a pic of it.

These are the only pictures i took.

My name tag.

The OH-SO excited Edmund, to do the voluntary work.

The OH-SO happy me to help out!!!With the messy hair!!!

While waiting for the opening ceremony.... -what else??!!-

The tired Edmund, after a long day battling with Bed Bugs, paints and all kinds of stuffs...

The tired me after a whole day of voluntary work. =p

And the picture of the day...

TaDa!!!
This was taken out of boredness!!!

Today, had physics test and English paper 1 term test.
I feel like crying now, because of the english paper!!! Only HE knows how i felt that time.
URGH, now, i must do triple good for paper 2.

Yes, I must agree, Sec.5 is a HUGE gape compared to Sec.4N.
So damn, scary, esp for english!!!!

The whole class have been asking, "Can we drop english?"
We know it can't possibly happen even though we hope it does.

I think i want to dropped art, can i Ms Kwa? PLEASE.....!!!!
-DREAM ON IFFA-

Oh, i'm reading Romeo VS Juliet, yet again...
Pa, i'm waiting for my books!!!!

Anyway,
wishing ALL THE BEST to iLa and Wana for your O'Level results.

I know how you all are feeling, i've felt it before, iLa, you should know darl.
Oh, speaking of which, i wonder how i did for my Malay this time.

If i get a B3 or higher, i'm not aking it again!!!
This is my promise.

Till then, i'm OUT!!!!

I'm Sorry.

2007-01-30T18:48:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry if i've hurt any of your feelings, especially my dear Fiknatic Sistaz, just because of my three previous posts.

I didn't meant it that way.
I've never forgotten my Fiknatic Sistaz. How could I, we are like SISTAZ already!!!
Aren't sistaz supposed to be together?

We are like sisters,
We stand together
We make one big FAMILY
though we don't look the same...

I'm really sorry, Kak aNNa`
Your tag made me feel so sad and angry at myself even more, it's like as if i don't remember my loved ones. You're never forgotten kak, never....

I'm preventing myself from being sad and 'emo'
I never like being sad, i love my happy self, but now, i can't seem to find it...
Anyone wanna halp me look?

Maybe, this is what my friends call the 'UPS & DOWNS of EMOTIONS"

I will find the happy Iffa back, and by then, i'll be fresh!!

Today was fine, nothing much happen.
The class and I finally finished the notice board.
IT'S A SUCCESS!!!!

I'll take a photo of it and post it here.
Had 4-5hrs of art today and i just finished two drawings.
I cannot think of a how to draw a future car????

Anyway, i need YOUR ideas for my art O'level.
My topic, PRESENT & FUTURE...

So, give me ideas on how you want the world to look like in 10-100 years time?
Do share ok, it'll be a GREAT help!!!

So, TooDeLs people!!!
Oh, once again,

To iLa: Yes, you will always be my fren even though we seldom meet. Thanks for your advice ya, and wish ya all teh best for the O'Level results!!!

To the rest, THANKS!!!

I'm OUT!!!

everything is gonna be alright....

2007-01-28T13:29:00.000+08:00

I went for a run this morning. Just to have a peace of mind and relax myself.

I must say, i've never been happier in my life, those 5 rounds was a great help.
It's just so peaceful with all the trees surrounding you, and it feels like you are trying to acheive something out there.
Nobody is stopping you, it's just you and yourself.

I read those two post yesterday, it seems funny at the same time stupid of me. Sometimes, i just need to rant it all out. Since, this blog is my only reliable 'fren'.

Thanks to all your advises, friends.
Sometimes, this mind of mine is simply crazy but i'm not insane.
I still can think straight and i will never commit sucide, it's against my religion.

I know, i'm mad but don't worry too much about me, i'll be alright.
Maybe, it's just stress.

Did ya all watched The Cheetah Girls 2?
It simply is CHEETAHLICIOUS!!!!!

Remember this guy?
I simply adore his dimples!!!!
SO CUTE!!!!

I wanna watched again, tonight.
Before that, i need to finished back my homeworks.
And, i'm addicted to this song.
I'M OUT!!!

2007-01-27T19:30:00.000+08:00

Feeling really down right now, why?
Not sure.

I have these feelings and voices that i'm not cared, loved and i don't even have friends.
Whats wrong with me, i asked myself but all i got for an answer is silence.

You know the feelings wher you can't feel anything or you just wanna be alone by yourself, yes, i'm feeling that.

And, i must admit this i am thinking of that idiot.
I don't know, Shalini if you're reading this, never ask ok?
I miss that. I don't know, i just miss those smses that he sent me and i miss those time when we chat nonsense.

You must think i'm crazy huh?
But, i have the right to pour out these stupid feelings and i'm so hating it now.
Don't ever ask!!!!

I'm empty on the inside and the out!
People, HELP?

I miss everyone, including you, my friends.

Have you ever been alone and everyone is crowding you but they are ignoring you cause they think you are sick or just need time?

Well, ya, i've felt that way.
But, when i'm sad and angry, i need someone to be there for me.
To entertain and accompany me, but no, i don't get that.
Sometimes i think, even my closest friends don't understand me.
Actually, nobody does.
Not even Shmi. Yes, not even her.

ARGH!!! I HATE ME!!!!

Should i just kill myself now?

2007-01-27T18:41:00.000+08:00

Let me scream first,
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, that's of my chest.
I'm very tired and i don't feel like blogging but i just wanna type something.
So, this post will be very RANDOM.

This whole week have been really tiring, stressful, crazy and fast.
Fast in sense that time is passing really fast, and it's nearly end of January....
English term test will be on the 14th Feb and Comb. Humans will be on the 15th Feb.

WAH!!!!
Very fast you know!!! Less than a month.
How? Just pray, study, focus and pray, study, focus and.... ok stop it IFFA!!!

And why crazy, cause friends like Shmi, Shalini, Ayu and Charace made me crazy even though i'm not in the mood to laugh.
Friends like that always make my day whether i'm happy, sad, angry or just feeling empty.....
And, yes... I do lOVE them, lots!!!!

I'm beginning to LOOOOVEEE English class.
Last week, we had a so-called performance about Punctuation.

I had 3 people in my group, including me 4.
Our punctuation was the exclamation mark.

So, Charace and I was really glad we got this cause, we love to scream and shout!!!!
Hahahahaha!!!!
It was fun, and i think among all the other groups, ours is still the best right, Charace?

I just came back from IMM, cause of the volunteer work.
I shall not say much, cause this is a public blog and i'm not going to say anything.
Want to know, ask me yourself!!

Seriously, i think i should just shut down this blog, it's just complete BOREDNESS!!!!

Ok, i'm done!!!!
Sorry if ths post of mine is so boring, cause i myself am bored and tired!
So, TooDeLs!!!!!!

P/s: I have a feeling that, i'm going to hate art this year!!!

2007-01-21T09:52:00.000+08:00

I just wanna say,

I HAD LOTS OF FUN ON SATURDAY!!!!!!!

Thanks to the sistaz, you made my day so MUCH better!!!!

Will blog in detail with pictures when i'm free.
Between i still ahve to ask Kak aNNa' and Kak Shad for the pictures.

Till then, TooDeLs!!!

2007-01-17T20:38:00.000+08:00

I was reading Kak aNNa`s blog just a few seconds ago.
I know, whatever Kak aNNa` type-d on her blog it is true and i'm looking at the way it is now. Actually i'm trying.
But one thing straight, i can never strave. If i starve the whole day on school, i'll faint la!!!
Imagine not eating for nearly 12hrs in school, and i don't eat breakfast either.
So sistaz, friends and whoever read this blog, i won't strave.

But, still i'm on a diet.

And, i realise there are still people out there who still cares...
Ya, i LUUURVVVEEEE them lots!!!! <3<3>
Life's like a novel
With the end ripped out
The edge of canyon
With only one way out
Take what you're given before it's gone
Start holding on, keep holding on

That few sentances are really encouraging.
It came from a song lyric, and i am so LOVING the song now.
Thought of making it as my class song, even class also got song!!! *shakes head*

Being a Sec.5 student is so stressful!!!!
Especially when you are in the first class of the sec.5.
All the teachers are depending on us to make YTSS proud, make sure we keep YTSS standard etc etc etc.
It doesn't stop there, it carries on at home, and i must say i'm
STRESS!!!!!!

YTSS is a very demanding school, i'm not saying my school is not good but i'm just stating the fact.
Who won't?

Each day everybody thinks that a student like me is very happy and no worries but they are WRONG!!!!!
Cause, each day i'm worried, whether am i going to do well, am i going to concentrate in class, will i ever get to understand every single thing the teacher teach? etc etc etc.

Never estimate that someone only be her smiles, laughter, saddness or even loneliness, cause nobody can read his/her mind.
ONLY THE PERSON CAN READ!!!

Why am i in a very angry mood?
Cause i'm just so upset why everybody is stressing me or my friends out?
Just to make sure we study?
Well, you can always caught us red-handed studying at 5pm after school outside the library!!!

Anyway, i'm tired, tired of all the stress that i'm going through but i'm gonna make sure, i go through my last year in YTSS properly!!!

On a better note; thanks for reading all the random and frustrated post of mine.
THANKS!!!
And ya, i miss my sistaz really bad!!!
Taufik, i think he is out of mine until O'Levels ends.

Oh Aziq, here's a little encouragement from me.

Cause when push come to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause it's all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you stand.

This is what actually make me stand up and have the faitha nd courage to carry on again.
No matter what happens, i'm here for you. *hugs*

Till then, TooDeLs!!!!

2007-01-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

A day with Shalini and Shmi, wasn't so bad at all.

It was actually the best day for this week, and i thank them for that.
Went to Republic Poly open house and head down to Woodlands Regional Library.

Spent around 2hrs at Rp, and at least 4hrs at the library.
What we did, study, revise and go crazy.
I just can't seem to stop myself from having fun with them, they are just the best.

After that 4hrs, we cam-whored and go crazy!!!

Here are the pictures!!!

This is the oh-so-famous posture of Shmi studying... =p

Shalini & I...
I love this picture, look so natural...

This is the right one, this is also nice!!!

Cool huh? LOVELY!!!

Pictures on the MRT...

and finally a picture of me.

Is it true, taking a pictures with only 3 people, will have a disadvantage?It will break a friendship among that three person.
I'm not being supersitious, but it has happened to me before...Hmmm, only god knows why.
Hope Shmi & Shalini enjoyed your belated New year prezzie.
Till then, TooDeLs!!!!

2007-01-13T08:43:00.000+08:00

Kak aNNa` has tagged me. So, here goes...

40 Random Things About Myself

1. I love my mum a lot even though, i get shouted at.
2. I love singing to myself, whenever i listen to my Mp3.
3. I'm very confused whether to go to JC or POLY.
4. I'm currently staying away from all Taufik's events.
5. I have mood swings, now and then.
6. I hate myself for being so moody and angry.
7. People know me as the joyful, crazy and bubbly girl.
8. I don't really talk to my neighbours. *roll eyes*
9. I'm thinking of being an aneroxic.
10. I love to run in the rain, the heavier the better!!
11. I think having a boyfriend now is just a waste of time.
12. I can get really stupid in class, esp when i don't really know the chapters.
13. I'm a book freak, i love READING!!!
14. I think i'm better in Malay than English, but i got a 1 for english instead of malay.
15. I can read books till 3am, latest was 6am.
16. I love to shout and scream, HAHAHA!!!
17. I wanna be a Drama instructor when i grow up.
18. I'm known as a Drama Queen in class. =p
19. I hate people calling me that just cause i used to be a Drama President.
20. Sometimes, i feel that i don't have friends. =<
21. I miss the old IFFA. *look around*
22. I miss that certain someone, even though that someone had hurt me. ;(
23. I think i'm a liar to everyone.
24. I have this feeling that, i can never make it for O'Levels.
25. I'm studying really hard and smartly so that i could get to a good poly/JC.
26. I'm going on a diet...
27. I sick with my life.
28. I always have this negative thoughts about myself
29. I hate those thoughts!!!!
30. I wish, i could just get over it and start a new life!!!
31. Being apart of Fiknatics and Fiknatic Sistaz is the best thing that had happened in my LIFE!! 32. I can hold back my tears pretty well, but i can never hold back my laughter, i wonder why...
33. I go crazy in DRAMA, sometimes, even juniors find my weird
34. I hate myself but at same time, i can't stop myself from loving it... =P
35. I rather slack and stay at home on sundays than go out...
36. I feel like cutting my thighs now, it's aching really bad!!!
37. I cherished all my family members, sistaz and friends a lot!!!
38. I hate smokes ahd have tatoos on thier bodies.
39. I love DRAMA a lot!!!
40. I can never tell my problems or secrets to anyone, including my mother or close friends...

A lot huh?
Confusing?
Hahaha!!!

Anyway, two weeks of school has passed and i think i'm already stressed up!!!!
Had lots of fun yesterday during religious class. Thanks to Farhana!!
See ya next two weeks babe!!!

I'm going on a strict diet now!!!
I've even thought of starving myself, seriously, i hate my FAT self!!!!
I'm born plump, bubbly and cute *roll eyes* but, i think its time to change!!!!
Really!! seeing some of my old friends, friends and even elder bro who have lost weight, i think i'm really fat now!!! URGH!!!!!

Hopefully, the plan that i've planned will work!!!

I don't think i could make it for 20th Jan.Nowadays, i rarely have the mood to go out, even going out with Shalini and Shmi today seem such a big task for me.
Whats wrong with me!!!! URGH!!!!
What's on my head now is toLose weight and get serious with studies. Damn i hate myself!!!
Between,HAPPY BELATED 18th BIRTHDAY BRO!!!!Have fun with ya PSP!!!!!

Till then people, TooDeLs!!!!P/S. Aziq, i so am in love with your phone!!!!Congrats!!!

2007-01-07T12:23:00.000+08:00

Well, it's going to be a tough, great and stressful year.

At least, that's what the teachers told us. What can i say, it IS going to be!!!!

Good news, i'm one subject free. Malay that is, so, i can concentrate on other subjects.

I'm so gonna post some of the pictures taken during the Fiknatic Gathering.
Since, most of the sistaz post, oh and i LOVE Kak aNNa' pictures!!!!
I WANT I WANT!!!!

The Fiknatic Family!!!!
I Love all of you too bits and pieces!!!! =p

Damn!!! I'm already missing them lots!!!!

Just changed my specs, why?
Cause my
this

specs
is now not allowed in school!!!!

WAD THE HELL!!!!

I'm only left with one year in school, and PLUS,
i've been wearing that specs since mid-term of 2005!!!!

So, i'm left with no choice to change my specs!!!!
I've changed into
this

specs.

You think it's nice?
My mum called that,

NERD FASHION!!!! *roll eyes*

Damn!!! I'm so missing that specs, and i found out, my degree and astik(did i spell correctly)
has increased!!!!

Ok, blame it on my endless reading while laying down!!!
I'm so damn BLIND!!!
Well, that's what my family and friends are calling me...

Oh, i've promised myself to blog only once a week, so my blog won't be update as currently.

Till then, TooDeLs!!!!

2007-01-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!!!

This would be my first post for 2007 and i'll welcome it with an open heart.

Today, had a BLAST day with the fiknatics and sistaz, it was GREAT FUN!!!
Even though my mind wasn't really with me today and instead of talking, laughing with them, i was reading my book....

Hmmm, sorry guys, my mind was kinda in a mess today, even though i look okay.
But really, i did ahd LOTS of fun.
Games, Laughter, Food and esp the people, you guys are tge best!!!!

Pictures will be post soon..
I'm not in the mood tonight.

This is my New Year Resolution.

1. To be more closer to HIM, i'm neglecting him and i feel like punching myself.
2. To get nominated by the Principal for the LKY award.
3. To try not to hurt my family, esp. my parents feelings.
4. To go to religious class more regularly, even though i've been really regular myself.
5. To lose weight!!! (hmmm, why does this sound familiar??)
6. To get the Romeo Vs Juliet Collection!!!!
7. To read more ENGLISH books!!!!
8. To get to a JC? (I'm not sure of this...)

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST...

9. To pass & excel my O'Level like how i did with my N'level.

INSYA-ALLAH...

Moga-moga ALLAH panjangkan hidupku ini supaya aku dapat dan boleh mencapai kehendak-ku ini.

To my Fiknatic Sistaz,
It's been almost 2yrs, and i'm glad you all are still there for me.
Wish you all the best for this year ahead, may it bring more happiness, laughter and craziness in us. But, never ever change you all.
Cause, I LOVE YOU ALL JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!!!!!

To Kak Nisa,
Good luck in your studies, may you have good grades!!!!
Jangan stress-stress ok?

To Anati & Aziq,
Let's go on this journey together, the journey to get good results for O'Levels.
Doesn't mean i did well in N'Level i could do well in O'Level.
It's a VERY big gap between N & O.
INSYA-ALLAH, dengan berkat kesabaran, kepandaian dan ketabahan kita akan berjaya.

To all my other friends and fiknatics,
All your memories with me will be in this heart of mind, all your craziness will always be here too. Love you all to bits, NEVER CHANGE OK!!!!

Even though a new year means a new you, don't change ok?
Maybe cahnge for the better, but never ever forget ME!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
LOVE ALL OF YOU TO BITS & PIECES!!!! =P

2006-12-31T02:19:00.000+08:00

Oh, i forgot.
Taggies reply...

aziQa: Thanks!!! Jangan la puji banyak2, so the malu you know...
Boleh, ape salah nye jadi your study partner.
But, you must be prepared tau, i'm the one who can get crazy about studies.
Are you prepared??!!! hahaha!!!

WenHui: Hey!!!! Thanks for dropping by senior!!!
Long time no hear or see, i am so missing you!!!
I'm fine, crazy as always.
Oh, thanks!!!!
Drop by anytime ya want ok? =P

Shalini: Thanks!!! I wasn't expecting it you know, thought Shmi could get also.
Hmmm, the other 3...
It's for me to know and for you to find out!!!!
Happy guessing!!! =D

Kak aNNa': I guess it HIT us really bad...
I was thinking of my life too, oh you did read up about her? Oh, that's great then you can tell me on Monday!!!
I only heard it from the news and youtube but couldn't manage to know more..
Thanks kak, maybe this is what people call the reward for hardwork.
Thanks ya kak, cya soon!!!!

Ok, i'm off!!!
CIAO!!!!

2006-12-31T00:09:00.000+08:00

Ok first, i wanna wish everyone, especially to my muslim friends, sistaz and family...

Well, i promised to blog about Hari Raya Haji and New Year...

Oh, it's new year eve and i'm more excited for 2007 as compared for Raya Hari Haji.
Well, later in the morning, i'll have to leave early, actually my whole family have to leave early for the mosque.
This year my elder brother's sheep gonna get korban.
Mum said, next year will be mine, cause of my good results this year....
Alhamdulilah...

Since it's New Year Eve, i'll blog the BEST & WORST of '06.

BEST of '06.

This is my best place for 2006, and i believe that it will also be in 2007.
This was where i studied till 8pm in school,
laughed, cried & go crazy in school.

One of my best time of the year; China Fieldtrip.Who would forget?I miss those times a lot!!!Can i PLEASE.....turn the clock?
The best buddy that i ever had and will always have..Shmitha.She was there for me in every way, esp when i needed her so badly.You're the best Shmi!And, THANKS!!!You know the reason.

The BEST people in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!They were there when i really needed them!!!I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Best painting i ever made.And, i'm proud of it cause i did it ON MY OWN!!!!!
Best song; minus Taufik's songs,Someone's Watching Over Me - Hilary DuffI don't know how to explain but, listening to this song reminds me thatI'm always being watched no matter what i do.Especially when during the N'Levels results, this song helps me A LOT!!!
Best teachers; ALL!!!!I owe a lot from all my teachers. Without them, i might not get to Sec.5even though i put lots of hardwork.
Best malay author.Best malay books i ever read.I saw the collection and i want to get!!!!Soon, pretty soon...That will be first in my wishlist next year.
Best pictures in my photobucket,

actually, there are lots more, but i love this two.2nd picture, i just love the memories....
Best achievement; ya all should know la...N'Level Results. 3 points.One of the 21 top pupils in school.
Well, this was the end of my BEST of '06.As for best movies; haven't been watching for quite a long time...So, no answer for that.
Wost of '06.
The worst part of being an ART STUDENT.I had so little time to sleep...But, i'm proud of myself.
Worst part during the fieldtrip.Had to trek up this 'hill'.Fuh!! Can die ah..Lucky i'm still alive...
The worst friends. Even though we once close, and i must admit,i do miss those days.If you're reading this, i'm sorry but it's the fact.I just hope, this cold war will stop soon...
Worst day; When i got a nagging from mum for such stupid reason.
I think that is it. I haven't got lots of worst-ness this year.Compared to last year.
This year is a great, tiring, unbelievable and wonderful year for me.I'm going to miss 2006 butI'll welcome 2007 with an open mind and heart.
2007 is a very important year and like last year,i'm going to take a REALLY LONG break from all Taufik's event.I'm going to stay away from forum also.It's really very addictive.That's why, i'm no longer active now.
I'll be back when O'Level's is over!!!Which i'm sure will not take long.
So, 1 January 2007,will be my last day with the fiknatics.
I'll blog about my wishlist and my plan for 2007 tomorrow.1 January 2007.

Till then, TooDeLs!!!

2006-12-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's post made me really down, yes it did.
Somehow, i wsn't feeling anything yesterday, like a ZOMBIE....
Walking around the house, doing homeworks without knowing,
you know those feelings.

Even Kak aNNa' was feeling down.
A lot of people have been asking me who she was, what happen to her...

Nah, her's the last video of her...

Ya know what happen now?Now, they even have an Anna Foundation....Wow!!! I'm really surprised.I'm not going to talk more about this, it'll bring me down again.
Just to let you know,I'm really glad that my hometown isSINGAPORE.I feel safe here.
Ok, good news, even i did not believed what Mrs Rahmat, my head master, said to me.
I'm one of the people selected for.....
LEE KUAN YEW AWARD!!!!!!
It's a really great award and whoever get it, definately will be OVERJOYED.
I haven't got it yet, just a nomination and there is another 3 of them.
All i have to do is, do as much CIP as i can by the end of February.
All 4 of us are doing it together.Anyway, we are from the same class and we are pretty close, so i'm glad that we are doing together!!
Since this afternoon i've been searching and calling up different kinds of society etc.Hmmm, GOOD LUCK TO ME!!!!!
Yesterday, cleaned my SO VERY untidy closet.Want to take a look?Nah!!!
And after a whole night of cleaning and tidying that 'little' closet of mine,this is the result...

Clean huh? I bet it won't last long...
I NEED A PROPER CLOSET!!!!!=P
While cleaning, i found my nett-ed hand glove.The time when i wear it during Anugerah's Concert?Ok this is it...

I simply LOVE this picture.
Between, i miss taking pictures with my friends, sistaz and family.And, i'm looking forward for the Fiknatic Gathering.I wanna take picture with everyone!!!!
So fiknatic and sistaz, get ready toCAM-WHORE!!!!!
LOL!!!Well update tomorrow morning about New Year & Hari Raya Haji.
Till then, TooDeLs!!!!

2006-12-28T12:59:00.000+08:00

Watch the video.It will really touched your heart.Cause, mine did.

Did it touched yours?
Sad huh?
It's even more touching when there are friends and family out there, ~~waiting~~ wanting her to be there with them when she had already gone.
Craving for her presence,missing her so badly....
Sometimes i wonder, what if it happen to me?
Will i be missed?
Well, usually, people missed that person so badly after she/he had gone forever.When she/he had left, then they start loving, missing and regreting what they had doneor have not done....
That is why, i'm loving my family, sistaz and friends like crazy now...So that, when either of them are gone, i won't regret anything cause i've spent my whole life with them.I've atleast made them happy...
Why am i typing all these bullshit you ask?You might not know when your day will come....
To leave this world forever.And believe me, i've dreamt myself being killed and dead.
Till now, i've never forgotten that dream.
People or even my friends might think its stupid and funny, but who knows (only ALLAH) when i would go.
May you rest in peace ANNA.
I know, you are badly missed!
Till then, TooDeLs....

2006-12-27T00:59:00.000+08:00

YES, new layout but the same image of Mr Soulman.
Thanks to who?

MY DEAR SIS NISA la!!!!

Thank you so much, I LIOKE!!!!
Between, i love this picture of her. So pretty aint it?

I've been thanking her like, so many times already...
Taken from Kak Nisa's blog.
AUGUST=FLIRT
You've got the best personality - oh, this must ask my F3are an absolute pleasure to be around - maybe....You love to make new friends and be outgoing - YUP!! that's me!!You are a great flirt - NO!!!and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie. - SURE OR NOT???!!!!Like somebody with an August brithday. - hmmm, let's wait and see.... It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. - i'm not sure of this...When it comes to films, you know how to pick them - hmm, kinda...and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - can i? i love drama & acting!!!heck,you've got the looks for it!!! - hmmm, this isn't right...
I think, this is so wrong!!!!I'm a FLIRT??!!!!
PAISEH LIAO!!!Hopefully, it's wrong....
Ok, not much update and i'm way too sleepy.
Nope, i have not finish my homeworks Yiling.....
HELP!!!!!

Ok, got to go. CIAO!!!