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Hello there, I'm a 14-year-old male student and web designer who resides in super sunny Singapore.I like tissue paper but I'm not a fan of sausages. I walk around Orchard Road every weekend in my snowman costume. I've figured that I already lost my sanity a long time ago. And so, blah blah blah. It goes on. Your profile here. I hope you have something to write. Do take note of the height constraint of this section! |
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I'm worried, scared, nervous, terrified and half-dead!!!! Why? Cause there is exactly 20 MORE DAYS to N'Level's results!!! I'm worried sick, been thinking of it every morning, wondering how well have i done, what grades i would get, whether i get a green form or not etc.etc...... I know, i've worked hard this year especially when i sacrificed not going for Taufik's event, which actually doesn't matter a lot. I must always think the positive but what if my results come the opposite? What if i get more than 10 points? I can't help but keep thinking of the worst situation, i must be prepared for it..... I must be prepared for a whole year of lecture by my mum and dad, how disappointed she would be if she saw that results and how am i going to face such a results. I must be prepared, i know and i hope that what am i thinking now will not happen. It's not that i did not do well, i know i can do the papers but sometimes, the results will not be what i expected it to be.... I've been in that situation before and i knew i will never run away from it, ALLAH always give challenges to his people, and i am not excluded. I'm worried. What if i disappoint them again? Will i kill myself, will i be strong enough to face them with their eyes full of tears of disappointment? I can't face it, it's already enough that i've hurt her, i don;t want to hurt her again... It's too painful, for a daughter to see how her mother cries because of a bad results..... I can't!!!!! I just want them to know that i've already tried my best, the best ever but what if the results is still not the best? What if it's the worst? There is a lot of questions running through my mind now, and i've been trying to answer them but i know it can only be answered until 18 DECEMBER..... All i want is to prove to them that i am studying, not fooling around in school... May ALLAH give me the strength to carry on, if i did not get what i want for my N'LEVEL results. I must be strong, especially now... I could only hope.... BE STRONG IFFA, BE STRONG.... |